It’s me again, Lemony! Just wanted to give y’all a lil update on how things are.
Truthfully, not the best. I’m back in in-person school and pretty much normal life plus masks, which is nice, but I get frequent overstimulation and anxiety attacks in school from the environment and the noise. I NEVER WANT TO GO BACK DIGITAL EVER EVER THOUGH. My parents are looking into getting accommodations to help me, but I really hate being singled out. I suppose I just have to wait. I wish I was able to listen to music in school, Cavetown calms me down significantly. My mental health has quite honestly been trash lately, Kayden is out of school for a couple weeks and I’m really lonely during recess, causing teachers to worry and once me to cri in deh bathroom. I had a doctor’s appointment and was so anxious I was physically shaking and had picked my nails down to stubs, my parents are getting me a therapist for that.
I, uh, I’m gonna try to be kinda honest, I do struggle with self-harm and yes it has been that way for a while, my parents eventually found out and I’m getting a therapist soon. Sorry I didn’t tell y’all sooner, just found it a little personal and also I was waiting for my parents to inevitably find out because they have a monitoring app on my phone that would have alerted them if I’d mentioned it sooner.
I’ve been taking horseback-riding lessons and that’s like my escape, on top of the horse all my worries seem to melt away. My (temporary) horse’s name is JoJo and he’s the second-biggest horse at the whole stable! I can barely reach to his withers with my hands up and I’m 5’2”and a half!
I am shaking a little while writing this, I don’t know why sometimes anxiety just shows up without reason ^^’
Hope y’all are doing better than i am, lol
Does anyone even really read these? Sorry if i’m being a burden heh
Peace out, Lemony