I’m a mom of a 10 year old so maybe this will help.
As a kid I went through a lot of this so I know how you feel, it burns.
It really depends on your age.
5-8 You have a long time. Have friends not boy/girl friends
9-10 Just be close friends. Just enjoy being a kid.
11-13 Start to find people you’d like but be cautious and don’t date yet...
13-15 Find boys you like maybe go on a few dates but only FUN dates not “go out and propose” dates. Treat them like friends.
16-18 Talk to parents and go out on dates if you want.
I know this is a super hard situation that no one likes. Keep in mind that if you want a husband, you’ll probably find a great one at some point. Just be patient and keep being YOU. When you date someone remember that this might happen and do what you want in mind that there is like a 50/50 chance of this situation. Spend time with friends and don’t worry about that boy.
I hope you feel better soon and I’m so sorry you had to go through this. You can always talk to family about this kind of stuff too if you want.
Lovejoypeace