I'm struggling with self harm it started when I was 10 I am 18 now I think it's because my parents died in a car crash when I was 10 so now I am an orphan now my brother still loves me the same I got these lyrics to a song and you can listen to it on youtube.
Link: Beautiful? - original song || illymation - YouTube
I fall apart on the floor in the kitchen You're always there, I don't wanna make you listen I'd rather do it on my own, try to fix it Cuz maybe this time it'll be different Y'know, I've been burned before You walk over to my door Late at night when I knew better The air was getting colder You saw what I did to my shoulder Late at night when I knew better But you say "you're beautiful" And who'da known that I'd believe it? Beautiful? But that's the way it goes That's the way it goes I'd like to say it'll go away with time But it never really fades on this inside What's the point when it's all in your mind? It's a fight every day to stay alive And I've tried eight years To conquer all my fears But they got worse Maybe I don't deserve To feel happy in this world Maybe I deserve to hurt But you say "you're beautiful" And who'da known that I'd believe it? Beautiful? But that's the way it goes That's the way it goes But if you saw me on the street you wouldn't know Cuz I'm wearing long sleeves, say I'm cold It feels bad feeling bad and I'm sorry I'm a wreck and you're fine so what are we? The overpass is close No one would even know And no one would even care I'll call my mom goodbye I'm probably make her cry But I won't be here to care But she says "You're beautiful So please don't go You're loved more than you know That's why you're beautiful." And who'da known that's all I needed? Beautiful? You're beautiful Do you know? I hope you see it Beautiful And thats the way it goes That's the way it goes Ooooo x4
I can really relate to these lyrics and song and I hope you can to those who are struggling with self harm.