Imagine this. You are having a mental breakdown about everything that's going on in your life. You don't even know what to do with yourself in that second. You are just scrolling through your bookmarks trying to find something of comfort, and you find the link to the kids forums question and answer site that used to be your life. Which you used to have a presence on. You decide to click on it. You open the tab and of course have to reset your password. And then it takes you on a journey. A journey of nostalgia. As you scroll through it, you easily navigate to your advice column, checking for very old questions that were never answered. Then you go to your blog section. You maybe even read one of the posts. You just feel an overwhelming love for the person you used to be when you were here, on this very site. Younger you, a younger voice, younger fingers not yet able to type as well. A younger mind. A more innocent one. But along with the nostalgia, you also feel an unfamiliarity. It's different now. It's moved on without you, as you knew it would. You made an impact here. But you still weren't that imporant, you weren't one of those people who would be remembered forever. You feel yourself smiling at all the posts of the people who never knew you, or used to. You feel comforted at the fact that things have stayed the same and changed all at the same time -- and so have you. So you start to type this. Deciding that whether people know you or not, you have to say something. You have to say something about the place that was once your whole life.
So yeah. I have no clue what that intro is. It was pretty much just me blabbing and kind of typing without thinking. So hi. You probably don't know me or remember me. I'm LLM. I've been on this site for.... 2 years? I was pretty decently active for the first year and a half I think. Then I guess.... I slipped away. I don't think I ever actually said I was leaving so... Yeah. Hi.
Oh gods. It feels so weird to write this. I guess I just have some things I'd like to say. I'll start by saying I have no clue how I'm still the 4th user... Second, I don't know what I'm saying anymore. So I guess I want to know. Does anyone remember me? I'm curious.
So yeah. Here I am. The person who slipped away to the way bigger world of Wattpad. I guess coming back to write this... I kinda wanted a piece of the person I was then? I liked her better in a way. She was so young, innocent, naive even. She was different than the person I am now. She was different than the person I was irl then. She was special. I guess, I still am her now. I can't change completely now, can I? I've just developed ya know.
So, people who don't know me, people who were/are my friends, I had tons of things I was planning to say in this, and like me, I forgot most of them. So yeah. Maybe I'll do an intruduction to me?
My name is LLM (it feels so weird to type that instead of my real name). I'm still a teenager, no matter how weird this sounded. I'm not very old.... ahahahaha. Idek. I'm a girl (she/her). And not that it matters that much but I'm heteromantic, so yeah. I have a dog... still alive btw. I'm still awkward. I'm still me. Bookworm, fangirl, writer, kinda artist, video editor (sometimes), and kinda a graphic designer (hobby). I'm aspiring to be many things ig. So yeah. That's me.
As for the kind more update-y part, I'm fine, I'm okay. I'm alive. I'll be fine. My life is okay. So yeah.
For the big question, I have no clue if this means I'll be back. You might never hear from me again. And this probably seems pointless. I will try to post some. But really, I don't know this place anymore. I don't know the ways. I don't know what's going on.
So now. The biggest thing. Can you all answer this? If you know me I wanna talk to you again. No matter who you are, I miss you. I do. I will have email notifications on for once, so I'll get it. And maybe just give me updates on you, KidzSearch, questions, you name it.
Oh wow. That was a lot but nothing at the same time. I'm rambling. No clue what I'm saying. So yeah. I guess I've really only been gone for .... six months? feels like an eternity tho.
Love, LLM
P.S. the way that this started off with complex sentences and then I started rambling is just so -
