I felt a strange change during junior school yrs, not knowing what it was and why. I suddenly knew i was inside myself, i cant really express, but I had a visual too. Like the outer space we see on TV now - endless. But the feeling was of completeness. I was thrilled..awed & speechless. But the feeling was too strong & I knew it was real. And then, I knew i wasnt alone, there was me too. I never knew how i know all this i said. Telling anyone was craziest idea, the best part is I didn't even feel I needed to. Since then, I have had that another world..or may be galaxy. I am in there at the same time I do other things there. Its no power, no illusion. The visuals go different in any time. I never imagine it. And I can't control it. And I've only had my own self. Cudnt put anyone trying to see if I could. So it was many more years later i'd heard of personality disorder, power of now, spirituality, being and so on. I read them and i still do. But i cant underatand if what I read is what it is. It doesn't give me any extra talent or trouble in the things I do in worldly terms. However, it helps me feel- consious, joy, pain or even regret. And it helps me heal too. It never had any connection on my religious belief. So I would like to know what it is in an appropriate understanding? Is there anything important I need to know? I just don't want to lose it, I fear what if it goes away like it came. I am more myself there, and completely myself everywhere because of it.
