KidzTalk - Recent questions tagged #depression

this post isnt even ragebait, smh

Mon, 20 Jul 2026 23:21:01 +0000

heres a list of everything my parents have told me when i say i feel depressed or hopeless

1.) "go outside a bit, your room is so dark!" (mom)

2.) "just snap out of it" (dad)

3.) "you get it from those friends of yours" (????) (dad)

4.) "ill send you to africa, you'll see how some kids live on the streets there, and you wont feel depressed here anymore!" (mom)

5.) "americans are just lazy, so they think theyre sad but theyre just doing nothing - ill give you some work to do, and then im SURE you'll feel much better" (mom)

uhhh theres a ton more so ill edit this post when i think of some more

-anastasia

Productivity & Fulfillment w/ Depression

Thu, 25 Jun 2026 04:24:32 +0000

I've been on summer break for a month now and I have not been able to do much for myself. I mean, I've been able to do stuff like eat (sometimes), wake up, shower, and do chores but not much outside of that.

I'm looking for any tips for managing depression to be overall more productive and fulfilled during free days. If you don't have any thoughtful to say, DO NOT ANSWER (you know who you are)

Bro what

Tue, 09 Jun 2026 14:29:46 +0000

Apparently I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression and I didn’t even know it lol.

And asthma.

o-0

-Aiden

feeling kinda dead inside u know?? + apology

Wed, 13 May 2026 20:57:38 +0000

hii

idk how many of yall r gonna look at this, or even care, cuz my prime passed ik

but i've genuinely been reaching rock bottom cuz of my mom, friends, religion, and sm more

i had like a phase of scrupulosity, and now prob smth like anxiety or depression- i took a test on both and they're severe

js cuz i'll get in these spirals and it gets so bad my head hurts to the touch, i feel nausuous, and even if i haven't done anything that day i feel freaking done

so idk man

i feel better abt my religion now- i'm an agnostic but i still love jesus and saints js organized religion isn't right for me- i question it too much to really be faithful

cuz i find the Divine in beauty and love, kinda like kali uchis (promise it's not cuz i like her music and wanna be like her)

i still hope heaven is real tho but it logically can be yk- it's the purest form of love- and love & beauty have a purpose in this world i feel like only a creator can design yk

i js feel so blind and unsure man

i also think my mom's bipolar

and all my bsfs r going to a diff high school and they're like off and on w/ me- so idk

that's bipolar too

i've just felt so sad, like my brain can't be as happy as it was

the future i wanted doesn't make me excited anymore.

nothing i loved does anymore.

so i'm js finding the new me rn? idk

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well i've been going through this for like 2 weeks i think i js don't feel happy cuz i haven't felt so happy in 2 weeks.

i just need to get better somehow.

i know i will. i js hope my dreams are still the same.

um i feel happier than i was a week ago, but sometimes that feeling disappears fast, so i don't rlly dwell on it- but i enjoy it

i figured out my religion literally yesterday, but i'm js burnout and still so tired

so i'm gonna get therapy

so like i apologize for before when i was so rude to gay ppl and therians.

well at the end of my devout catholic era i realized being gay or whatever isn't a sin.

and i still recommend religion- bc at the end of the day we all see the same higher power, js in different ways

js find the way that works for u

like this is odd i feel like yall have never seem me like this idk

sry yall i'm a bum

but i've been like using ai as my therapist for 2 weeks and i prob would've crumbled without it lmbo

also guys i promise my personality and humor is still the same this is js my depressy expressy typing

kudos to u if u read every word

i don’t feel so sigma

Wed, 06 May 2026 17:41:35 +0000

my room is such a mess that it depresses me yet i have 0 motivation to clean it

a couple months ago i locked in hardcore and cleaned it a lot and made some great progress but then i randomly lost all motivation and it got bad again yay

i share it with my little sister which sucks cuz it’s full of her toys and she’ll publicly execute me if i get rid of them

we do have an extra room in our house and im trying to convince my parents to let me have my room there but i dont think it’s happening… I JUST WANT PRIVACY RAHHHHHHH

anyways does anyone have suggestions/tips to help me clean/focus

i probably have adhd which doesn’t help cuz i get distracted by anything and everything

anyways thanks for reading pookies here’s a cookie

All kids on kidztalk gather here (especially middle schoolers and high schoolers)

Mon, 27 Apr 2026 16:21:04 +0000

So I've heard somewhere about this thing called the yondr phone pouch, some attendance registry system, chromebooks,... and they're all controversial

U can tell me more about them, or just vent yer frustration of them

I'm vietnamese, and I'm in the dark about these (except for chromebooks maybe)

Break

Thu, 23 Apr 2026 23:23:36 +0000

I need, like, a month long sleep break but we all know that isnt going to happen in my life—so ima take a break from KT for a week.

I actually kinda wish I could tell yall why, but now I don’t feel like I’m allowed to express my feelings on here anymore.(hope I don’t have to sit through a talking too for saying that)

Cya.

Also, as I asked on my last post(which no one responded to this part of the post which is why I’m saying it again); does it sound like I’m bragging about being a system? Cuz a lil bird told me I was/looked like I was, and I don’t want to look like I’m bragging about it :(. Cuz I’m not trying to and if it does look like I am what are some examples?(so I know what not to do.)

(Copy pasted)

-Snow

depression

Sat, 11 Apr 2026 18:11:00 +0000

lifes going great. and youd think that that's not an issue, but im scared that it will be eventually

I'm forced to leave everyone I know and go to the high school that I really didn't want to go to, so I'm scared that everyone will forget about me and my life will fall apart in the next 6 months :/

if something bad happens socially in my life in the next 6 months, I called it °-°

-anastasia

Guys I’m kinda scared for my health

Mon, 06 Apr 2026 21:05:59 +0000

It’s 4:00pm for me and I have only eaten a pack of Pop Tarts today, which was my breakfast

Ok so I’m stressed for some reason and it’s so bad that I’ve started sleeping in more, like until 10:00am, when usually I’m up at 8am, and it’s also made me feel a LOT less hungry

And it’s really scaring me

Also this is my last day before spring break ends. Tomorrow I have school and it’s gonna be horrid. My sleep is so messed up, and I wake up feeling tired even if I slept perfectly. And I know that my teacher is going to notice if I don’t eat anything at lunch tomorrow because usually I eat 90% of the contents in my lunchbox. I usually eat a lot at lunch, so if I don’t eat anything, my teacher, my best friend, and the popular girls are all gonna notice. I usually finish eating earlier than the rest, and my teacher will be like “you done eating” and I’ll be like “yeh” but if he asks me that tomorrow I’m just gonna say “no, I didn’t eat anything. I’m not hungry” and instead stash snacks in my desk for when I DO get hungry. But he’s gonna be concerned. I know it

And Aqua knows about my depression but she doesn’t know how severe it is, she doesn’t know about the severe stress, and she just doesn’t know the full extent of everything. The only one who does know at school is a girl in my class with similar issues

So yeh I’m really scared. I’m prob gonna show up to school ready for war. So if anyone at school messes with me tomorrow, they are gonna learn real fast that tomorrow is NOT a day where I have lots of patience

And I know Aqua will probably back me up. She usually does. But I am SICK of all the bullying and I am going to make it clear to anyone who harasses me tomorrow that I am DONE

So yeah. Tomorrow is gonna be insane

But I’m really scared about my health because it’s not good to barely eat anything. Like you should trust your body and shouldn’t force yourself to eat anything but it’s bad that I’ve only eaten one thing today

Anyways yeah

-Ivy

Ways I’ve decided to try and help with my depression

Sun, 05 Apr 2026 20:48:58 +0000

First, take learning Korean more seriously. I have 25 videos saved to my phone that are tips for learning Korean. I’m gonna start there, as well as a language learning app

Second, openly talk with people about my insecurities. If I open up to people more instead of being closed off then it might help me feel better about myself. I might get in front of my class and give a five minute speech in front of the class that I am NOT gonna write down but idk yet

Third, try to limit my doomscrolling. I spend hours each day scrolling YT. Instead I’m going to limit scrolling to maybe 1-2 hours instead of 5-7

Fourth, cut back on candy and ice cream and such. One sweet item per day, instead of candy in da car, ice cream at home, more candy in da evening

Fifth, explore new music options. Listen to a wider variety of kpop groups. Find some music that connects with me that doesn’t make me feel more depressed and lonely. Though I can thank music for helping me notice my depression and loneliness

Sixth, do some research on the things I love, like animals and maybe an essay about the benefits of art or something

Seventh, DO ARTS AND CRAFTS MORE OFTEN. This is mandatory

Eighth, make new friends. I’m working on expanding my friend group. And building closer connections with my current friends too

Ninth, try not to have crushes. If somebody likes me, that’s a different story, but I don’t think I’m in the right emotional and mental state to be crushing on over 4 different people that 99.99% probably don’t like me back

Tenth, try to make people feel better about themselves. I’ve left an anonymous letter to a girl in my class that I admire before. She had no idea who it was from and still doesnt. But everybody deserves an anonymous letter of kindness to make their day better, because nobody knows what they’re actually going through. And nobody deserves to feel like me and think that they don’t matter at all.

Eleventh, work on controlling my anger issues. That one is self-explanatory

I’m tryna think of more but this is what I got for now

If y’all have more ideas drop them in the answers

-Ivy

I changed my mind

Sat, 04 Apr 2026 15:23:15 +0000

I need to be here

I thought about it for like five minutes

And I realize that with the severity of my depression, I need all the friends and support that I can get

And that includes online friends

Plus this site has always helped me in some way

Like this summer when everything happened with cps, this site was here

You guys have helped me through a lot just by existing

So I’m staying

Do you guys have any ideas on things I can do that might bring me happiness? It’s hard to find happiness right now because I’ve been forcing happiness around my classmates for so long

I know I should prioritize my mental health over this site but I feel that if I stay connected with my friends on here then it’ll help in some way

Anyways yeah

I’m gonna get back to talking with ChatGPT about ways to help with my depression

-Ivy

I might take a break from KT

Fri, 03 Apr 2026 19:20:27 +0000

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Idk I’ve just been really depressed lately and I just don’t know anymore

I’ll check in like maybe 2-3 times a month but idk

I abandon the site for hours at a time just to come back to 0-2 notifications from KT and.. idk KT doesn’t bring me much happiness and stress relief like it once was

I’ll still answer PMs but otherwise I’m only gonna post 2-3 times a month until I feel like coming back for good

I just need a break

I’m not leaving permanently

I’m just taking a break for maybe a month or two

But I’ll check in every now and then

Anyways yeah

-Ivy

Guys help plz

Sun, 29 Mar 2026 14:23:37 +0000

How do I tell my parents about my depression and my guess on why I have depression?

If y’all don’t know then read the post here

But guys plz help

I wanna talk to my parents about this but I’m really scared

I don’t know how they’ll react. And I get scared easily because of my anxiety. But this is really an issue because I can’t keep hurting my mental health by hiding my feelings out of fear of harassment

I just feel so alone right now. The only one who knows irl is a friend that I trust enough to tell this to because she’s really the only friend that will truly understand. I really need to talk to my parents about this so guys if you got advice please help

-Ivy

Why… (rant)

Sat, 28 Mar 2026 14:52:18 +0000

I think I know why I’m depressed

Ok so I’ve been bullied for years and years

Nowadays I just don’t show a reaction

And I think hiding my feelings is part of it

But also the fact that I couldn’t fight back even if I WANTED to

My parents say “never resort to violence”

I don’t usually WANT to resort to violence

I only do when I need to protect myself

Because bullies don’t leave when you ask nicely

But I kicked someone last year because he was bullying me and wouldn’t leave me alone. I asked nicely so many times and he kept saying no so I kicked him.

I got YELLED AT by a teacher when SECURITY CAMERAS show that HE was provoking ME

And then my parents took my phone away, even though it was literally SELF DEFENSE

Oh- and I TRIED walking away from the jerkface. He followed.

So yeah

And whenever somebody harasses me and my friends, the teachers always find a way to blame US for it, and not the people harassing us

Like really?

The teachers seem to think we just go around being violent

NO

Me and my friends actually stay AWAY from people

And THEY come to US

Yet WE get blamed

So yeah

If anything, THATS why I’m depressed

Because nobody understands and I’m forced to hide my feelings

Like I feel so alone

And it’s destroying all of my happiness

I’m crying so hard that I can’t breathe right now

And I want to talk to my mom about this but really WHAT IS EVEN THE POINT

One of my friends, E, is lucky

With her mom she could punch someone and not get in trouble if she has a good reason for punching someone

And bullying has given me trauma

So now when I get bullied I feel trapped and I feel like I NEED TO fight back

Yeah

Bullying has caused so much damage

It’s caused me trauma, depression, LOTS of self-hate, and forced me to hide my emotions from others around me

Like WHY can’t we all just ACCEPT EACH OTHER and live in PEACE?!

Anyways yeah

I just needed to vent

-Ivy

Mini vent… life sucks :)

Tue, 24 Mar 2026 01:52:35 +0000

So Im probably being forced (by my mom) to move to another city. Bcuz Im not becoming a “good” kid

And Im gonna just run away (again) if we end up moving

Also how I’m doing rn.. not good at all Im very depressed, overdose a lot and just take whatever (stuff) I can get, I do sh a lot, my mental health is just getting worse and worse, But nobody knows that obviously bcuz I always act all fine when I’m around people. So I don’t have anyone I can talk to

anywho byeee love y’all

Jim Carrey on identity and depression

Sun, 01 Mar 2026 08:29:39 +0000

The following are all Jim Carrey quotes:

“I don’t believe in personalities. I believe that peace lies beyond personality. Beyond invention in disguise. Beyond the red S that you wear on your chest that makes bullets bounce off. I believe that it’s deeper than that. I believe that we’re a field of energy dancing for itself. And I don’t care.”

“There is no me. There are just things happening,”

"As an actor you play characters, and if you go deep enough into those characters, you realize your own character is pretty thin to begin with".

"You suddenly have this separation and go, “Who’s Jim Carrey? Oh, he doesn’t exist actually."

"There’s just a relative manifestation of consciousness appearing, and someone gave him a name, a religion, a nationality, and he clustered those together into something that’s supposed to be a personality, and it doesn’t actually exist. None of that stuff, if you drill down, is real."

“Depression is your body saying, ‘I don’t want to be this character anymore. I don’t want to hold up this avatar you’ve created. It’s too much for me’”

Suffering

Sun, 15 Feb 2026 05:21:17 +0000

When there isn’t school, I just feel bored and uncomfortable. When there is school, I feel sad and lonely even though I am around more people than when I’m at home. It feels weird calling my friends “friends” for some reason. Just saying that I have friends feels weird. I don’t know any of my friends very well, and I sometimes feel like they don’t want me around, which I am pretty sure is untrue but my brain likes torturing me. People at school joke about depression and su*c*d3 and just talk about it in a way that bothers me. Like treating it like something that people don’t suffer from. They tell each other to g*v3 up 0n l*f3 in a joking way and it just bothers me. They call a fictional character a bum for not wanting to go to a party. Sure, it was a fictional character, but it still bothers me. All of that makes me suffer more. I want to ask my friends for help. Two of my friends are depressed and had tried to k*11 themselves before. One time, one of my friends was feeling very depressed and when they tried to tell another one of my friends, his reaction suggested that he probably just thought it was a joke. People don’t take mental health seriously enough. I often think that everyone else suffers like I do, but then I realize they likely don’t. In my head, it’s weird to not suffer. To enjoy life fully. I wish things get better for me. I’m tired of all this. I miss back in October, I was in a play, I had gotten to know my friends better, for halloween, I went trick-or-treating with them, we ended up having a last-minute sleepover and stayed up until 3 am watching horror movies and playing games. Things were just better. Simpler. Sure, I still suffered some then, but no where as much. It’s mostly just recently that I have been suffering quite this much. I hate it when the weather’s nice because then I remember when things were better and I get sad that things aren’t that nice anymore. I feel unmotivated a lot. Listening to some songs made me remember walking to the bus stop, going to the library and then walking to my rehearsal. Theater forced me to get out of my house more. I didn’t get into the last 2 shows I auditioned for. The first one, the assistant director liked me, but the main director probably just pre-cast all of his friends and stuff. My dad said he overheard them say that they were considering me for the lead role. The second play, I auditioned just for fun and I knew there was no way I was getting cast bc I am a child. Not being in a play probably took a toll on my mental health. I just want things to improve. I need help.

If you read this entire vent, you get a gold star! I just really needed to vent.

School starts back up tmr….

Tue, 06 Jan 2026 03:28:36 +0000

I genuinely feel depressed rn

I realllyyyy don’t want to go back

How to cure deppression

Sat, 03 Jan 2026 06:26:00 +0000

Title

Ughhh I hate dis

I found a creepy baby dolls head in the forest.

Sun, 21 Dec 2025 20:35:22 +0000

I also saw Slenderman but we don’t talk about that.

well, it’s not technically an actual baby head; it’s a head of a plastic baby from the 70-80’s. It should be around 45-55 years old

And it’s totally not creepy. (Well I don’t think it’s creepy, but the rest of my family does because it’s the literal head of an old doll; it also has roots growing out of its neck—that look like veins)

Ibwashed it of a bit in the creek streams I found, but when I got home I gave it a good washing and its now soaking in soapy water.

And don’t ask me why I feel good enough to go adventuring at my dad’s old farm, but don’t feel good enough to make up backstories for usernames.

I’m a weird being.

Take for example: I would much rather be in solitary confinement for a week then go to co-op for a day.(solitary confinement is fun)

Like I said, I have weird needs.

I just walked past it when getting a bowl of chips(definitely a nutritious thing to be eating after 2+ hours of jumping and walking in ditches) and it looks sad :( it’s face has indented scars from the idiot who threw it away.

They definitely threw it away because it’s cursed, but now it’s my cursed baby head. (I couldnt find the body; the head was already half buried—so who knows how far down the body is)

I can’t te if the baby is modelled of a boy or girl baby (I don’t think they would make intersex baby’s in the 70’s) so now it’s androgynous baby.

Almost all the coloration has faded, but I know jt has black hair and dark blue eyes (and still some actual eyelashes). The eyes are suppose to be the ones that move, but they got blacked up with wet dirt that then hardened.

I’ll update yall if any cursed things happen.

Byeeeee

(KS MOD WHY ARNT U APPROVING THIS? I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING BAD)

-Rainbow-kitty~he/them~

I'm scared...bad grade

Tue, 18 Nov 2025 19:21:23 +0000

I'm scared. I do online school. I took a test and got 16/20 questions right. I remember on another test I got 15/20 and my mom freaked out, forced me to retake it, and took away my devices until I did. I now have an A- and my mom is gonna wonder why.

Why does everyone 13+ looove frey sky so much?

Wed, 12 Nov 2025 00:36:58 +0000

I just, i dont understand i mean altho the only thing ik bout her is that she played some sun girl in zombies 4

im so sick omg

Tue, 11 Nov 2025 17:12:52 +0000

ive been sick for like 5 days

im not sure if anyone actually misses me lwk (except for Joe, ofc )

but yeah idk if we have alot of makeup work to do

getting better tho

im just watching "The Middle" wishing my life was like the kids there

bro yesterday my parents were so mad at the dinner table

apparently my attitude is rude

well i guess that's what happens sometimes when your child is depressed

anyways yeah my mum took my phone so i havent been on that for 2 days

i just have my computer and the tv

like the old times

anyways bye chat

Going for a bit.

Tue, 30 Sep 2025 14:44:07 +0000

My deppression and mental health in general has been bad lately so i'll be gone for a few days or something.

My life lately

Fri, 12 Sep 2025 20:58:35 +0000

Spoiler it's low-key terrible

Yeah we had a school trip to my s.o. Evans school 2 days ago ...

It was not fun

This girl who I had to follow around during the field trip to get to know the school, Zoe, she went to my middle school and she's nice. So she gave me a cookie, and we were like 30 seconds into the day going to her locker, and guess who's right there -_-

I got so scared bc Evan was standing there and I almost had a medical emergency right there on the spot and I'm not even kidding

He asked how I was lately and I couldn't answer bc I had food in my mouth ToT

So that was awkward

That day was otherwise fine though if

Life is not going good lately

I got kinda a bad score on this maths quiz, like 5 people aren't rlly talking to me, and I used to have like 9 friends and now I only have 3 that actually put effort into talking to me and texting first half the time

Also may Charlie Kirk and all victims of 9/11 rest in peace and with God

Anyways yeah I'm kinda depressed and rlly busy lately soooo that's why I'm not on kt too much still

I'll try better though I promise !!

Anyways yeah I should go study (even though it's a Friday night but one of my best friends couldn't go ToT to this football game :( so yeah)

But wtvr I'm going to the mall with one of my amazing great friends on Sunday so that will be so funnnn
Also I'll go catch up on journaling and stuff

Bye guys and I'll try to be more active when I can

(sigh)

Tue, 02 Sep 2025 13:53:56 +0000

where did everyone go corrvetfan is gone, elithemaster is gone, all of these famous people on here are gone.

Please, help me

Fri, 15 Aug 2025 06:55:58 +0000

I am currently crying. I am extremely upset. I accidentally deleted one of my best stories I've ever made about my three actual cats and I can never get it back. On top of that, 2 times I actually permanantly deleted every single photo and video I own. From existence. I've looked on Icloud but absolutely 0 pictures showed up, even ones I had years and years ago. They magically dissapeared. All my memories and the important pictures and videos I've taken are gone, and I'm so upset I don't know what to do. I just want them back and I hate myself for getting rid of them and not paying attention first, and I feel like it is all my fault...plz I just need some support I think it will make me feel better becuse I hate my life right now. Those were special to me.

I hate my situation, me, everything,

Thu, 14 Aug 2025 19:35:44 +0000

I's not fair.... why can't i have a good life??? why do i have to constantly be abused.?? Why can't i go out and talk to people?? Why can't i be pretty?? Why am i alone?? Why can't i be normal.....

sigh…summer……. !VENT!

Tue, 12 Aug 2025 02:37:23 +0000

I can’t. I told myself I would never vent here because I didn’t want to lower the mood of my normal posts, so instead, I’m signed out, and staying anonymous. The only reason I’m doing this, is because I need to get this out, and the season is almost over.

My tío/uncle C died two years ago. It was summer. He would go to church with us, and for my ninth birthday he and my Tia/aunt gifted me my first children’s bible, seeing as I loved volunteering to read at church. I loved it so much. I hugged my Tia and gave her a kiss, and I just awkwardly hugged him. The next week, or month, or few days later, I don’t really know my brain blocked this out, but point is, he ended up in the hospital. He ended up having something similar to a brain tumor. We always went to visit him, but he was in a coma like state, hooked up to tubes and medicines. One night, I had a dream that he was at my house. Despite being out of the hospital in the dream, he was still hooked up to tubes. I grabbed his arm and showed him my room, and I told him,”I love you, tío.” And I hugged him. The moment he pulled out of the hug, he started crying and said,”you know what’s happening to me, right?” I woke up shaking. I had never gotten the chance to tell him I loved him, or even call him tío, I called him by his name. He died the next day. Something I was told after he died, is that he did love me despite the fact we weren’t blood related. He said I reminded him of himself at my age, due to the fact I couldn’t pronounce the letter r, sh, ch, or th. I wanted to cry when they told me this, but I didn’t. Now, I forgot his voice, his laugh, his smile, or even his eyes.

Last summer, my grandpa died. In his life he’s had more than ten strokes. This all happened when I was less then a year old, so I never knew him before he got sick. I have memories at the age of 3-6 being in and out of the hospital for him. My entire life I knew him when he was bed bound, partially paralyzed in part of his body, could barely speak or move, and couldn’t see. So he never once saw me in his life, and if he did, he most definitely forgot, as I was about a month or two old. When I was ten, he had to go back to the hospital due to kidney failure, and a mix of other issues. They gave him blood transfusions but it never worked. He was put on hospice. One day, I hit my head in school and got picked up early. On the drive home, my mom talked to me about the situation with grandpa, and that he probably doesn’t have too much time. That drive, it was when….she had to ask the question. The question of, if he did pass soon, and I was asleep…if I wanted her to get me, or if I wanted her to tell me the next day.. It was hard to think of, I was terrified of seeing him lifeless..but I’ve seen that so many times in my life already. I stayed silent for a bit, and told her I wanted her to get me. That same night, I was rushed up by my dad. I immediately ran to his room. Everyone was crying and telling him it was okay, and that they’d be okay, etc. Then, at exactly 12:57 AM. August 31st-September 1st. He left us. I didn’t cry at his funeral, though inside, I died. My heart and soul died. But I didn’t let it show. I was the therapist for too many, and I wouldn’t break now.

This summer, my great grandmother, or my bis abuela(great grandma in Spanish) as we’d call her, passed. She had a seizure, but due to her age, it made everything so much worse. She was already mostly blind, and could only speak Spanish. Now she was paralyzed in half her body. She was put on hospice. I don’t remember the details, my brain tends to block stuff out. But…I feel like I failed. My younger self would hate me if they knew. I promised I’d learn Spanish and one day have a full conversation with her. I failed. I didn’t cry at her funeral though. I died even more. This summer has been worse. I picked up a few bad habits (biting myself, digging my nails into my arms, hitting myself, etc) and I’ve struggled to stop. I look at myself, but I hate my reflection, I’m either too skinny or too fat.

It’s not even the death that hurts anymore. My family isn’t the same. Summer just isn’t the same as when I was a kid. When I was a kid, there were fireflies, and bubbles, and a trampoline and dogs and a backyard I’d run in. Where’d that life go? Now, I stay in my room all day everyday. I just can’t anymore. It hurts so much. But I won’t let it show.

-???

I'm sick so I have to stay home

Wed, 11 Jun 2025 13:06:02 +0000

but that means I can also play Roblox...painfully

i'm so mad ಠ ೧ ಠ

Tue, 10 Jun 2025 01:27:52 +0000

my school counselor called my parents, and told me that they selected me for "gifted advanced literacy" next year. i guess it means i'm smart now or smth. like normal lit is hard enough, but now i gotta learn it from the grade above me??!! i'm also already in advanced math

No words can describe how mad I am right now

Fri, 30 May 2025 19:26:05 +0000

I got my standardized test grade back for science (I am pretty interested in science/zoology/biology and stuff) and I am mad

All year I have been striving for a perfect score, and this test is out of 899 points (dont ask me why)

I tried so hard

guess what I got.

Guess what???

A STUPID FREAKING 898

My teacher said he had never seen it before.

AARGH

but on the plus side he said sometimes they reevaluate scores and most of the time if it changes, it goes up, so if I get 899, I will let you guys know.

So I'm kinda skipping gym right now

Fri, 30 May 2025 12:19:57 +0000

My school is obbsessed with all the students playing volleyball to the point we do it almost every single day. Like for the past 3 years volley ball is the one sport we have always played. It's not the only sport but it's definitly the most played.

Problem I SUCK at volleyball I can't do heck. And everyone knows this and yet whenever I mess up like not hit the ball or something everyone will shout at me before returning to the game. As if the game is the most important thing ever.

Anyways so I'm just skipping gym all together and hiding in the locker room right now reading other KT posts.

sigh Movie in class = paper work.

Fri, 21 Mar 2025 17:17:17 +0000

We're in history class right now me and my friend Captain Howdy. A movie is playing about the life for soldiers in the civil war. Like an actual movie not just some washed cracked up documentary funded by the school. Anyways! We're watching it and we have to do PAPER WORK! Why!? I'm crying right now!

yes

Wed, 05 Mar 2025 02:05:12 +0000

comment one thing you hate T_T

Why is life so hard on people?

Mon, 17 Feb 2025 12:12:18 +0000

It's either that the world hates me specifically, or 11-12 is just a hard age. One of the two. It feels like the world hates me, but everyone tells me it doesn't.

sigh

Thu, 23 Jan 2025 00:28:10 +0000

so i was in the shower and im home alone rn

and i get out of the shower to my phone vibrating nonstop!

so i look at it and my mom is spamming me sayd "if you dont ancwer im calling 911" and she said she called me 10 times but on my phone she didnt even call me once!

NOW IM GROUNDED BECUASE HER CALLS DIDNT GO THROUGH AND I WAS IN THE SHOWER

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IVE BEEN CRYIGN FOR AN HOUR NOW
>:(((((999

Crush pt 2

Thu, 09 Jan 2025 02:16:10 +0000

If you had seen my earlier post about me trying to tell my crush that I like him, this is kinda a follow-up. I overheard someone saying that my crush liked someone else but she doesn't like him back. This was kind of a letdown because yk. I still kind of like him but now hearing that he liked someone else makes it feel confusing. Should I move on even though she doesn't like him back?

Depression is coming back.

Fri, 03 Jan 2025 09:48:35 +0000

Usually when I am on here I am pretty confident and happy, not right now. Things happen, happening as we speak.

My dog died today. I new that dog for 5 YEARS. 5 [REDACTED] years. SINCE I WAS 11 YEARS OLD.

My dog is dead. I loved that dog. So many good and funny memories with that dog.

Life is a pain in the [REDACTED]. It's like a mosquito, it'll be annoying, bite you in the [REDACTED]. Then you just want to KILL that mosquito, just END IT. That is how I feel about life right now. I don't want to die and I do at the same time.

Help. Me.

IMPORTANT How is it like in 9th grade? I'm scared [rant]

Mon, 09 Dec 2024 14:27:02 +0000

I'm currently in 8th grade and my parents always exaggerate over high school, like "OOHHHH you have to prepare for college and stuff and you can't

afford having a bad GPA!! 4.0 is the way to go, anything lower than that and you're screwed." They always like

to use their "hardworking experiences" to stress me out and make myself feel bad just to make me work harder,

but it doesn't work. I have ADHD and I feel like they don't understand me. I try all my hardest to focus, I really do!

But they just don't believe in me. Last night my parents were yelling at me about this and for the rest of the night I felt nauseous,

scared, and I felt like I could throw up any second. I'm scared and I feel all alone. Help.

how can you deal with depression in school???? T^T

Wed, 04 Dec 2024 23:23:26 +0000

I don't understand at this point I just want to cry everyday I go to school bro like how do ya'll do this on a daily basis

Breaking up with people is harder than it looks....

Sun, 03 Nov 2024 04:02:27 +0000

Today I broke up with my girlfriend, and now I remember why I was scared to in the first place. I hate hurting peoples feelings and I've always found it difficult to break up with her, especially because she was my best friend until we were dating. I didn't want to ruin our friendship, but I also didn't want to be in that relationship any longer. I wasn't even aware that it was possible to fall out of love, but I did, and.... It hurt. I really hope nobody else has to be scared of breaking up with people like I am, because its painful and I feel like I was more upset than she was. There I was, sending a text to her, and she said "this is so out of the blue" and I could only say sorry. Then she started swearing at me, and so I put down my phone, and took a walk, in the dark, to calm down, but I was nearly ready to cry, and my heart was beating a million miles a second. Anyways, if you made it this far, I'm sorry you had to listen to me ramble on and on, but... Thanks. It means a lot.

chat

Wed, 23 Oct 2024 21:15:41 +0000

lets chat

Chat drama is bubbling so I'm gonna be sigma and spread brain rot.

Mon, 21 Oct 2024 13:28:48 +0000

here Are thing's I love abt Kidztalk user's.

Carly- You never are afraid to express your opinion, and you have the coolest hobbie's, art, studying Nordic history etc.

Flamingphoenix- You are so kind and incredibly creative!

Thatonerainboworm- you share the same thing's I enjoy, and express yourself in awesome way's.

Thatonecholerafryingpan- you are so sweet and funny! and you alway's try and find a solution.

ideka- You are so calm and funny, and you alway's are there for someone.

Naccim- You express your opinion and try to keep this a safe website.

Toe- You are so caring, and are very confident in what you believe.

Theyluvlorii- your art, and love for mlp and kindness.

Vampy :3- your love for expressing yourself.

I am depressed

Mon, 21 Oct 2024 04:06:59 +0000

Kidztube please allow this message for my health and support, thank you.

If you have been wondering why I havent been posting well here is why,

I thought I would be happy when my cousin came, (If you know you know) but I was just depressed and sad when she left tonight. I feel empty inside and feel like my life is not really important to me anymore, can anybody help me? Or talk about it in a way to help?

Also I dont want to tell my mom about anything

I'm so confused right now.. ( Drama bubbling)

Fri, 18 Oct 2024 18:00:28 +0000

So, my and my gf are in a secret relationship ( Cause high school has a bunch a homophobe's) anddddd uuuuuuummmmmm These annoying preppies came over and were like " Do you know where ( bella my gf) Sit's??" this was during lunch btw, and I was like " That's a lil sus" So I said " No, I don't sorry." even though I do, and then I said " Why do you need her?" and they said " Oh, we just have a homework question!" And I didn't want to be rude so I was js like " Oh okay" Bella was on the other side of the cafe, microwaving her popcorn, they went over CROWDED AROUND HER and bella looked confused and scared. When they left, I went over to her saying " They said they had a homework question for you." and she said " They asked if I was your girlfriend." And then she said " it's because I have a lesbian flag pfp.." And I was Like " It's not your fault, and I don't think our friend's would tell.." Then, I went outside with bella, we were yapping about it, and then we left and headed to our classes, and then she emailed me " If anything happens let me know" I want to dropkick those GIRLS SO BAD.. It's not a problem we aren't in a straight relationshippppp. They are in most of bella's classes, and in our P.E... We're gonna try and figure it out... But if anything else happen's... we are going to a counseler.

This is a bit of a rant

Wed, 09 Oct 2024 23:55:05 +0000

Ugh. So I was minding my business right? And my mom comes in and is like "I just got a call from the school counselor" and I just looked at her and she said "You got flagged on Docs of the Google" and I blinked at her and said "FOR WHAT?!?!" and she said "Talking about depression and low blood sugar" And I looked at her. My great-grandma literally died a week ago. I don't currently have a phone and my best friend and I were using Docs of the Google to talk, through our school emails. I was venting about how I wasn't eating much. I wasn't sleeping much. I would get black dots in my vision and my mother said it could be because if low blood sugar, which is what I told my BFF. Well, it flagged the school, and instead of looking for context and stuff, they immediately called my mother. My mother thankfully was like "yeah, we just experienced a family death, so it's been really rough on all of us." She also told her that I was diagnosed with Standard Anxiety Disorder and like... severe depression. I don't remember the exact diagnosis and I don't even know if I got the first one right, this was like 6 hours ago. But yeah. That's my rant. Thanks for reading.

~Ideka

I'm so mad right now.

Wed, 09 Oct 2024 13:13:25 +0000

My best friend, like I said in the other post " Clara" has been ignoring me for the past couple days. we haven't hung out one on one in forever. And she's always coming up with excuses to say " no " " can't " I don't even know what she think's of me at this point. She'd be like " go hang out with your girlfriend or smth!" like, did I ask? I don't want to hang out with bella all the time! ( my gf) Clara has also been ghosting me in social situation's and I wanna dropkick her AND my choir teacher! Comment what do I doooo

SIGH

Tue, 08 Oct 2024 13:47:31 +0000

Hey SIGMAS

I have a mosquito bite on my jawline... I can't mew. IM BEING FR IT ITCHES SO BAD. Mosquitos love me chat, good news: I'm getting picked up 30 mins early before school ends, to go watch the new wild robot movie with my grandma ( it's seems like a really sweet movie) and my little sis. I love the kids fun pack at the movies, I swear my mom literally said " your 14 years old, and you still order from the kids menu?" yes. yes I do. DEAL WITH IT MOM. Also, I get to see my girlfriend at PE today ( I hate PE but I get to see her al least >;P and my sigma Clara ( aka my only friend :( ) jk I'm not a Soft girl like that. anyway bye pookiessss

HELP x_x

Mon, 07 Oct 2024 15:42:29 +0000

I'm at school rn and dying X_X ToT HELP my back is so sorrrreee. idk why but it has been sore for a week, and I might be dying. I think I can already see the light, anyway. What do I draw? I brought my sketchbook and kinda wanna draw an anime character.. SOMEONE HELP. :PP