venting a bit (✿◠‿◠)

Wed, 04 Sep 2024 04:20:13 +0000

TW- ED&SH

please dont read if you are at all sensitive to these things. be safe <33

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I hate myself. i genuinely hate myself. im fat and ugly and I can't even control myself.

im in a constant cycle of dieting, feeling better, feeling guilty, sh, and dieting again. no matter how hard i try to forget about it, there is always a voice in the back of my head shaming me.

i lost almost twenty pounds over the summer. im 5 pounds away from being underweight, yet i feel even worse than i did at my highest weight (around christmas lol) not to mention i still look round and chubby because i have no muscle.

When i was younger, i wished to have an eating disorder and wanted to (/////) because i thought it was quirky or cool or sm. its not. im suffering everyday from this and it will never leave me, no matter my size. i have been doing very little sh lately but i know it will start more because of school. my mental health is just shameful and if anyone knew what was happening they would just be dissapointed. my dad would just ground me and never leave me alone about this.

im just so tired at this point /////. （ ´_⊃｀）

SORRY FOR ALL THE WORDS!! ILY SM BE SAFE ♥╣[-_-]╠♥!!!

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