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Rant before I go to bed

Mon, 30 Mar 2026 01:09:04 +0000

Anytime my computer is open around my parents they HAVE to be looking at it and I had my computer open like 5 minutes ago (not even) because I was about to log into my DC (dual credit) class and finish an assignment, and I close my computer because my mom walks in and I was trying to show her I was gonna pay attention and she goes "what's on the computer that I cant see"

and I said "nothing, I'm about to do my work what do you need?"

and I kid you not, she just rolls her eyes and tells me to show her my computer, so I open it, and, to no ones surprise, ITS MY PSYC WORK

LIKE BRO

what do you think I'm doing?

and she does this all the time, its so annoying

and if I say annything she just twists my words

ugh I cant wait until I'm 18 so I have free will

anyway I went shopping today and ended up ordering some new shoes for XC and track (they didn't have my size available in the color I wanted in stock in the store) and I bought 2 new sketchbooks (rip the sketchbook I lost)

I also cleaned my room! and I've been crocheting today

anyways, love y'all, goodnight :3

-Jessy <3

Why… (rant)

Sat, 28 Mar 2026 14:52:18 +0000

I think I know why I’m depressed

Ok so I’ve been bullied for years and years

Nowadays I just don’t show a reaction

And I think hiding my feelings is part of it

But also the fact that I couldn’t fight back even if I WANTED to

My parents say “never resort to violence”

I don’t usually WANT to resort to violence

I only do when I need to protect myself

Because bullies don’t leave when you ask nicely

But I kicked someone last year because he was bullying me and wouldn’t leave me alone. I asked nicely so many times and he kept saying no so I kicked him.

I got YELLED AT by a teacher when SECURITY CAMERAS show that HE was provoking ME

And then my parents took my phone away, even though it was literally SELF DEFENSE

Oh- and I TRIED walking away from the jerkface. He followed.

So yeah

And whenever somebody harasses me and my friends, the teachers always find a way to blame US for it, and not the people harassing us

Like really?

The teachers seem to think we just go around being violent

NO

Me and my friends actually stay AWAY from people

And THEY come to US

Yet WE get blamed

So yeah

If anything, THATS why I’m depressed

Because nobody understands and I’m forced to hide my feelings

Like I feel so alone

And it’s destroying all of my happiness

I’m crying so hard that I can’t breathe right now

And I want to talk to my mom about this but really WHAT IS EVEN THE POINT

One of my friends, E, is lucky

With her mom she could punch someone and not get in trouble if she has a good reason for punching someone

And bullying has given me trauma

So now when I get bullied I feel trapped and I feel like I NEED TO fight back

Yeah

Bullying has caused so much damage

It’s caused me trauma, depression, LOTS of self-hate, and forced me to hide my emotions from others around me

Like WHY can’t we all just ACCEPT EACH OTHER and live in PEACE?!

Anyways yeah

I just needed to vent

-Ivy

So uh (rant?)

Tue, 24 Mar 2026 01:53:55 +0000

So we have a lot of symptoms of this disorder, and we are thinking abt telling our therapist abt it.

I’m not naming it because—although we’ve suspected longer then a year—we don’t want to be fake claimed, or say we have smth that we end up not having (as there are a lot of disorders out there—and many are similar to each other, but not the same. So we just don’t want to self diagnose, and get it wrong)

But anyway, we have a lot of symptoms , and it’s disruptive to our daily life and adds an unwanted amount of stress as well.

The problem is, we don’t really talk abt in our journal; and we have only ever gone to our therapist abt problems that we alr know the answer for, so this would be really nerve racking ToT

We mentioned to her abt someone who we know (online or not. I don’t want their identity revealed) who said that they think they have it but only listed a few symptoms (we were just concerned for them, as when we were that age we thought we had a bunch of different things)

And we were basically like “we have a lot of more symptoms then they do”

And she asked if we suspect we had ___, but we just brushed her off and gave her the ‘I’m not self diagnosing’ answer.

But we really do think we might have it, or smth similar.

And I just idk

Idk what to do

Or what to tell her.

Especially since we haven’t formulated a list of all the symptoms—so we haven’t overthought it to a point where we are certain of the outcome if we brought it up with her.

Idk I’m just—idk

Sorry for such a long post, we’ve barely talked abt it in our journal (this is one of the few things we’ve always kept to ourselves) so I have a lot to rant abt.

ugh

So should I tell her abt my symptoms?

I feel like I alr knew the answer, but my head hurts and I’m already dealing with re-surfaced trauma.

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I’m tired

Goodnight

-Dew (they + neos)