KidzTalk - Recent questions tagged #vent

having a weird relationship with food is a canon event

Wed, 15 Jul 2026 23:10:56 +0000

(ventish? I swear to god mods if you don’t approve this I WILL find you)

is it just me or does anyone else get super grossed out by food/eating? I don’t even like reading the word sometimes cause it makes me feel weird and bad. some days I’m perfectly fine with it and then sometimes I feel like just not eating at all because it feels so nasty.. but I have to or else I’ll die

also I don’t really like how my body looks which tempts me to stop eating entirely :/

however I will not let the opps win

I'm mad at my parents.

Sun, 12 Jul 2026 16:26:44 +0000

So my parents make me hide my opinions for my own good. They're almost to ALWAYS telling me to "be grateful" even for small things! EXAMPLE: If I got an apple and my friend got an orange, and I'm like "Hey! But I wanted the orange!" They're gonna be like: "You should be grateful that we gave you a snack. Because we could've gave bothof the snacks to (INSERT RANDOM NAME HERE) and let you be hungry." That ticks me off!! Please! HELP ME!

Virtual hugs,

Oakley

This is a safe space

Sat, 11 Jul 2026 20:24:18 +0000

Guys actually if you need to vent to anyone, ANSWER down bellow! This is the place to

I haven't been a very good person this year.

Fri, 10 Jul 2026 06:11:25 +0000

This is not a good thing.. I realized this literally earlier today.

So basically I kinda bully this one guy in my class. And I kinda just do it to every other boy and my excuse was always "oh well boys always bullied me so now I'm gonna bully them" and i thought it was entertaining. mind you, these boys have done NOTHING to me.

And I kinda just realized... Im acting like Jax from TADC bro. Like why do other guys have to suffer for the stuff other boys did. Im so dumb, man. I could've made so many friends but instead chose to make enemies.

I broke someone's backpack this year. It was an accident, but its still broken because I was teasing them. It was a sprayground, too.

So, im going to stop teasing/bullying boys. I really should apologize to the guy I bullied most but I'm just so.. Embarrassed of myself. The best I can do is just stay clear from him.

I was having hallucinations earlierrrr

Sat, 04 Jul 2026 04:17:09 +0000

so I'm blasting music right and all the sudden I hear the sink water in the kitchen I was home alone so I was ok and thought it was my dad but I was embarrassed cause I only play loud music when they leave. then I hear dishes like being piled on top of each other and then I HEAR FOOTSTEPS COMING UPSTAIRS AND INTO MY MUMS ROOM . my dad in fact was not home and I checked the cameras and nobody was there

I have a headache

I needa get more sleep

Vent

Tue, 30 Jun 2026 21:54:12 +0000

So guys if you don't see me in a while like 2 to 4 days my friend's cousin is claiming that she's going to tell my mom if I don't apologize to her friend that I showed them inappropriate stuff when I didn't and I already told my mom about it and they're doing something about it and I'm older than them so I hope that they don't believe it....

this sucks (vent)

Mon, 29 Jun 2026 17:25:20 +0000

okk it isn't too too bad, but I just moved to a new house and it is super far from everything!

And if you've ever moved before, you know how hard it is to pack, and how hard it is to UNpack! I don't have any motivation to unpack my room. And my room is so messy with boxes and when my room is messy so am I. I hate having a messy room, but yeah.

Plus there's a hoard of ants invading my room.

yipeee so yeah

Nooo I don’t want to go

Fri, 26 Jun 2026 14:51:20 +0000

I finally got back from staying with my grandma (the one I ranted about last time) and now my parents are making me stay Saturday to Monday T^T

I really don’t want to go

I don’t want to have to stay with her for that long, I can only tolerate her so much

Plus my parents get to go to a pride parade while I’m there which I’ve always wanted to go to one but they won’t let me go (bro neither of them are even lgbtq+ why the freak are they going? They won’t even call me by my preferred pronouns or name T^T)

And my other grandma want to take me to anime club (the best cus I get to yap) and I’ve been looking forward to it too and my parents have known this but they only told me today I can’t go

Whatever, stupid rant, imma go cry in the corner now

HAVE A FLASHY DAY/NIGHT!!

Ughhhhhh

Thu, 25 Jun 2026 02:37:39 +0000

This is gonna sound stupid but idc at this point

So I hate staying with my grandma

But today I’m just done

So I’m staying at a hotel with her. Driving there she drove like she was a distracted teenager and almost hit two cars. At the hotel we went to get dinner at Publix. I haven’t eaten much in the past few days because I haven’t been hungry but I actually am today. And I told my mom and grandma and I told them what I wanted and the only things I didn’t want to eat. They only brought back what I specifically said I don’t eat. And it’s not because I’m just picky, it’s a texture things and I will literally throw up if I eat it

My bad for the stupid rant

HAVE A FLASHY DAY/NIGHT!!

Proof having a summer birthday sucks (vent)

Wed, 10 Jun 2026 13:27:19 +0000

I have my birthday pretty soon so right now I’m planning my party; I had 3 best friends I really wanted to invite, so I had my mom text their moms for a date. Well one of them is busy every weekend for the rest of the summer, which isn’t their fault but it’s still sucks. The 2nd friend is free for two weekends close to my birthday, but my third friend can only maybe go one of those weekends on a single day (she has a performance that day but she doesn’t know when yet).

So yeah, only one confirmed friend for my birthday the actual month of my birthday. I know I could always wait until the school year but I’ve been doing that for as long as I can remember and I just want one birthday to celebrate in the actual month of my birthday.

Also, the friend who is busy all summer is always busy so I don’t think it’ll be any easier.

This is also the last year before I age out of the museum experience I want to do, and it’s not like I was asking for the prefect birthday. I already knew not everyone could come and I would have to be flexible but still! I could just invite the few friends that could actually come but the experience is made for a larger group.

And people still say I’m so lucky to have a summer birthday :/

(For answers, it’s ok to share your experience but plz not the full story of your life)

I hate planning events.

Sun, 07 Jun 2026 01:00:04 +0000

Next week, me and some of my friends are going to volleyball camp. For context, basically all of my friends play volleyball except for a few in field hockey and one in cross country. My friend group does not like each other. I used to think that EG was ML’s best friend, but apparently ML hates EG and doesn’t want to be friends with her anymore. MT doesn’t like Christians, and if she thinks you’re a Christian, she’ll be giving you the side-eye 24/7. EC is kind of bossy, and everyone was complaining about her during volleyball season. AM has no enemies, but privately thinks that most of us are pretty annoying.

Again, all of us play volleyball, and of course MY MOM found the camp first so I HAD TO PLAN IT. I ended up just inviting everyone. Half of them “couldn’t make it,” but told me over text it was because someone they didn’t like was going.

LIKE, PEOPLE.

SUCK IT UP.

LEARN TO COEXIST.

Ugh.

STOP NOW IM ACTUALLY ANGRY

Fri, 05 Jun 2026 20:34:45 +0000

MY MOM IS FORCING ME TO GO BACK TO HER HOME LAND. ON MY BIRTHDAY, CHRISTMAS, AND NEW YEARS. AGAIN.

I'm actually going to crash out if I have to go back. I would rather stay with my dad alone for 1 month than go back. That's how bad my last experience was.

I was actually so excited for my birthday this year. This one is really special for me. I wanted to hang out with my friends.

And we're going in the winter. I had even BIGGER plans for winter. It's literally my favorite season! I look forward to winter more than anything! And last year she pulled me out while all the cool, fun winter stuff was happening. I don't get that again. I missed all of it. I missed certain friends leaving, I missed spending a birthday with friends who aren't coming back this year, and I missed Christmas. I didn't even get gifts for that or my birthday.

I'm actually refusing to go this time. Like, you couldn't promise me anything. The main reason I can't stay home is because my dad will be at work and everything, but I can literally take care of myself. I can walk home from school, I can cook, I can clean..

I am sitting my butt down. I am not going ANYWHERE.

Little vent abt bullying

Fri, 05 Jun 2026 16:54:43 +0000

So this happened during winter and I’m fine now, but basically I was in PE during winter, with a small group of other kids (like 8 of us total). There was this one girl in PE that is known for bullying ppl and she’s been mean to me a few times but I always avoided her. So it started with her just picking me up randomly (?) and the PE teacher didn’t really do anything about it because she saw it as a joke. It got worse though, to the point she was telling me not to come to school the next day bc something “bad” would happen to me. She also called me fat and said her family calls people fat when I defended myself. I eventually went to the consular and it exculpated to the vice principal who basically told me what I thought she would tell me, which was I should’ve done something sooner (which isn’t untrue but also like, we have bigger fish to fry?). The girl stopped, I’m guessing because the vice principal talked to her.

I don’t like going to the consular/vice principal about these things, because 1. they usually don’t do anything and 2. I prefer to handle conflict myself, but I’m glad I did in this situation.

i feel horrible??

Fri, 05 Jun 2026 01:02:11 +0000

so basically me and my parents aren’t tight if you know what i mean.

and i have been having the most insane joint pain.

sometimes i have to lie down quietly on the floor because every time im too exhausted to get up all they say is “be strong” and just kind of…ignore it.

i hate it so much because now i ignore it and i feel like i have to be perfect and not ever be in pain and it’s so scary.

ive been throwing up at the thought of meals.

i dont know what’s wrong with me and i hate it so much.

since i was little i haven’t been close with my dad because i was born a girl and it would be awkward being close with a girl or something and i know they love me but it’s so hard to be around them!

i just wish it would all stop and i have no idea why im commenting this here.

Hey so I'm cooked

Thu, 04 Jun 2026 22:18:39 +0000

I have a friend who I stopped being friends with a few months ago because their bad mental health was making me have bad mental health and I was kind of almost on the verge of going bye bye. Plus they were racist, unintentionally manipulative and kind of annoying.

But we kinda became friends again because I still really like them. But once and a while they still vent to me about how much they wanna go bye bye and I'm kinda lowk "Ok that's sad but like what am I gonna do about it??" And I don't say that but all I do is suggest that they talk to a hotline or a trusted adult because I suck at comforting people and I am sick of enduring all their pain because it makes me feel guilty that I can't take it away.

So apparently they're going to my school in August (they used to be in my school but then they left because of their new house) and I don't think I am okay with that.

As much as I enjoy their company when we're not arguing and venting, everybody else hates them and I know their gonna give me a hard time about talking to them. I already had to endure this before they left, and I defended them every time, but I'm tired of it. And what if I fall into the same depression I did when we were still friends? I know that's not their fault, but...

Oh and I'm also kindofinlovewiththem. So what do I do?

I feel sick (let this flop)

Wed, 03 Jun 2026 20:51:23 +0000

I was working on documenting all our alters(so no one slips through the cracks of our faulty memory), and it passed the 100 mark.

I feel like ima throw up.

I have a twisting sensation in my stomach. I hate it, I want it to stop.

Why ... do we have so many.

I feel gross

Impure or wtvr

Ugh

Despite knowing that we couldn’t bare to lose anyone in the system, I at least wish we would stop getting triggered into forming more.

But I am not ever entertaining the idea of getting meds for them to go away. I’m not sure what we would do if we didn’t have the others to help eachother.

I hope mother doesnt see this.

-Bill (he/it)

.....

Thu, 28 May 2026 19:57:41 +0000

Hey guys. I am an active user but I just logged out as to not worry anyone, so I'm not gonna type using my actual personality. KT, please approve of this, because I have no one else to talk to without fear of them telling my parents.

I've been struggling a lot lately and I have to get it off my chest because I don't have a therapist yet (I'm going to get one soon but I'm scared)

Anyways vent time

I'm not good at school, the only talent I have is drawing + mediocre writing skills. I am not grateful enough, I can't focus, I can't control my tone/emotions, and I'm constantly getting in trouble and getting my phone taken. I think that all I am is a waste of time, money and space.

I always feel too loud, too annoying, too excitable, too cringey. My whole existance feels just so embarassing.

I hardly have any friends, and the ones that I do have seem to not care about me the way I care about them. I'm always texting first. I'm always making plans. Plans that they ignore, or agree to without actually intending to follow through with. My closest friends, the only friends who actually put effort into our friendships don't even live in my city anymore.

I love my family but I don't think they really understand. I don't have any privacy, not even my own room even though we have space for me to live in, and my room is a huge mess that I have 0 motivation to clean up. The only reason why I haven't Sayori'd is because I don't want my family to blame themselves. I know they care about me and love me, but I just can't take it anymore. I cry almost everyday, I hardly sleep, and I hardly see anyone outside of family.

I honestly don't think I'm going to make it to 18. Anytime someone talks about my future, I just feel this pit in my stomach, because I know I'm not ever, ever, ever, going to amount to anything.

The thoughts and ideas have been getting worse. I even started hurting myself. It's feels like the only worthy punishment for being a child that my parents don't deserve. Part of me hopes someone will see them, someone will actually take me seriously, and I'll feel better. But some twisted part of me doesn't want to feel better. Some part of me takes comfort in this sadness. I thought I was getting better. But it's just a cycle of better, then worse, rock bottom to happy again. Everyday feels like the last. Over and over and over and over. I just feel so alone.

I'm scared to get a therapist, because what if I accidentally tell the entire truth and I'm sent to grippy sock land?

I doubt anyone is gonna read this whole thing, and I am so sorry that I am probably coming off as whiny and self centered. I just need to tell someone.

Venting

Wed, 27 May 2026 23:22:44 +0000

I am only nine years old i am in school whoever sees this thank you here is my vent in school 2 teachers are making me feel uncomfortable upset and anxious first teacher she says i need "extra help" during work with a friend time she makes me work with her she never supports me she goes "WHERE DID THAT NUMBER COME FROM " and "YOU NEED EXTRA PRACTICE YOU SAID THAT LAST TIME" earlier she made me feel so pressured my hands shaked i was trying not to cry second teacher I once made one mistake she got upset at me and in front of half of the class she talked about my "mistakes" the list goes on here is another vent I have adhd my fake freind knows about it she tells people about it the teachers know it feels like my adhd makes everyone think something is wrong with me I have only a few real freinds school says they "help students" I have great parents they are the reason i am still here but I feel like i might be falling into depression again...

What is worse? Racism or Homophobia

Tue, 26 May 2026 06:01:53 +0000

Racism way worse fr

Another thing

Mon, 18 May 2026 13:49:01 +0000

Me and my friend JJ had beat minecraft on our school computers 2 weeks before school ended, I have proof if you all want it but basically we downloaded it and found a way to by pass the wall to microsoft store for it

I Hate Pretending I'm "Fine"

Sun, 17 May 2026 05:28:50 +0000

I Hate Pretending I'm fine. I Hate being the "happy" friend. Why did I choose to be the happy friend with no problems? Well, whatever. I'm going to have to do it for the rest of my life...

I hate pretending that I don't feel like I'm downing under school work. I hate pretending I'm always happy. And what do my friends do when I'm sad? They call me "anoying and weird." They call me a furry when I tell them not to, too...

My main acc: FoxFlower75

I can’t believe what just happened.

Fri, 15 May 2026 01:46:35 +0000

So my friend, who I will call MT, is omnisexual and has a crush on this girl at my school who I will call ML.

Me and ML are the tech club for the Wizard of Oz, and MT went to see it twice. On the second run, MT called us in ML’s car. She said I was a bad artist (I’M A JUNIOR VASE WINNER) and ML was a bad actor (SHE’S THE MOST TALENTED PERSON I KNOW). Me and ML were silently crying in the car, and as soon as we hung up, we started sobbing. I can’t believe this HORRIBLE PERSON said such AWFUL THINGS. Now ML hates her and so do I. I just needed to get this off my chest.

Vent

Tue, 05 May 2026 21:35:16 +0000

I'm having the worst time right now. I'm moving in 29 days from VA to Alaska. I've been in VA since 4th grade and I'm in 7th. There are some kids in school that make me so stinking mad. one of them calls me a name that happened months ago and every time he says it makes me so mad on the inside but I cant show that I'm mad otherwise he'll do it more until I do something worse than spill some stupid words out. the thing is, this kid is popular so of course he has people who follow his actions and even make life worse for me. I have so few friends and even fewer even care what happens to me. Those who do understand how I feel and actually listen to me are friends I've known for years. I don't remember things as easily as others and people are mad when I cant remember something like their birthday when they have seen time and time again that I have the memory of a goldfish. My mind does things that I don't understand and I try to figure out how it works by seeing my zodiac, seeing mental disorders I might have, but I never feel like I found something new out for me whenever I do. Whenever I'm high strung, I have a sass in my voice that I don't mean to have and it makes my mom so mad whenever I'm talking to her. I connect with fictional characters easier than actual people, which means I cant read people easily but I can see things in fictional characters as easily as breathing (like Ragatha and all of her mental scars, Wolf and her fear of being with people because of what happened with one of her mute friends when she was little, Jax and his fear for losing friends, Leo and his anxiety in being the perfect leader, Hunter with his feeling of needing to show he's worth something, to name a few) I HATE FEELING LIKE I NEED TO PROVE IM WORTH SOMETHING AND THAT ILL BE DISOWNED IF I DONT HAVE A WORTH!!! AAAAGGGHHH!!! I want to let my siblings have their own shadow, but I want to make sure that they don't make the same mistakes that I have. That one quote between Luz and Hunter, "At least you have your life figured out" "At least you can choose your own" shows how it feels for the oldest. Sorry about the long vent, I've never done this before

Anyone’s else’s school ban needohs/fidgets

Tue, 28 Apr 2026 16:14:56 +0000

So, at least for my school, the needoh craze started a few months ago, and at first, many teachers didn’t care. I go to a private middle school and fidgets were somewhat common as FOCUS tools. But once the needoh craze started and ppl started fillling whole pencil cases teachers began to individually ban needohs. A few weeks ago, the school altogether banned needohs and other fidget toys unless your learning plan said you could have them (the vice principal literally did locker checks to make sure you didn’t have needohs).

IM GEUNINELY SO ANGRY RN OMG

Fri, 24 Apr 2026 21:53:57 +0000

I have a decent Friday for once and now my mother is accusing me of lying about not being at school and me damaging her room to look for my phone that she took for literally no reason? Are we serious? Why does someone always have to ruin my Friday?

so now it's being taken away. then my father has the actual audacity to ask me to be happier. like, NO???

I actually worked so hard today and I wanted to call my friend. I was genuinely so excited.

I actually cant with these people

Vent

Sat, 11 Apr 2026 02:33:26 +0000

Life is different.

Last Year, My Dad wasnt diagnosed With Cancer,

This Year, My Dad Has Cancer its just sad

back when my youngest brother was born my Grandfather, (My Dads Dad) Had Very Bad Cancer. My Father now looks like his Father More

Last year, I had (Diagnosed) OCD and it was not that bad

This year,my OCD is terrible And Therapy is trying to help me and its kinda getting better

i feel distant. not physically, but mentally. I feel like no one else is like me

Why care.

Wed, 08 Apr 2026 10:44:33 +0000

I don't care.

I don't care how someone dresses, I don't care what type of music you like, I don't care where you live, I don't care what color your hair is, I don't care what shows you watch, I don't care how you decorate your room, I don't care if you are gay, I don't care if you are 12 or 7 or 45, I don't care if you don't like the things that I like, I don't care if someone is mean to me, I dont care I dont careeeee

People argue so much over stupid things. My parents were screaming at eachother because my dad said a word wrong and my mom cared so much about him being wrong. People argue on KT because they care so much on what other people identify as. What's the point of arguing when it just leads to nothing nice at all. I just hate seeing all the arguing and I don't get how people care enough to put their energy in to that. I barely have enough energy to brush my teeth, how can you have energy to put into useless things like arguing with someone over something that doesn't matter, I don't understand.

Poetry

Mon, 06 Apr 2026 20:24:40 +0000

I think I knew when everything was getting bad again

When I started doing everything sitting down.

When even standing felt unnecessary

When my bed stopped becoming a place to sleep

And slowly became a place to hide

I noticed it when silence started feeling louder than noise

When my phone would light up, and I would stare at it without opening anything

When smiling began to feel like an effort

And frowning felt natural

I knew it was getting bad again when I stopped looking people in the eyes

When I laughed, but didn’t feel it in my chest

When “I’m fine” came out too quickly

I think it was getting bad again when I stopped planning things.

Stopped imagining

Stopped hoping

When days didn’t just feel heavy, just empty

When I couldn’t sit in a room and feel like I didn’t belong there

Or to myself

I think I noticed when I stopped writing

Because I didn’t know what I was feeling anymore

Not sadness

Not anger

Just distance

Like I was watching my life instead of living it

And maybe that’s the strangest part.

Not the tears

Not the breakdown

Just the quiet fading

The slow disappearance no one notices

Including me

I think it’s getting bad again, I know it’s getting bad again

I knew it was when time seemed to slow down

When the world slowly began to collapse around me

When I stopped caring about things I once loved.

I knew it was getting bad when I became less important to myself

When the insomnia came back

When the things I once loved became draining

When cleaning felt like running a mile

I knew it was getting bad again when my head became too loud

When I stopped eating

When socializing became draining

When focusing became an impossible task

I knew it was getting bad again when the light in my eyes slowly disappeared.d

When days felt like years

When hope seemed out of the question

When random things ****** me off

I tell myself “I’m better” until I’m not

I’ll be “Good” until it gets bad again

I know it’s getting bad again when my bed slowly became a prison for my mind.

When sleep feels impossible to catch,h but dreaded when it comes

When socializing became harder than being alone with my mind

When exhaustion made its way into every aspect of my life.

I know I’m getting bad again.

Because my head is never quiet

It’s so loud. Too loud.

I can’t even hear myself breathe.e

Unless I’m panicking

Unless my breath is too quick

Unless my breath is the only thing I can hear

Too loud to hear anyone’s voices

Except for the ones in my head

I know it’s getting bad again

Because it started again

Not eating

Walking everywhere

Only having water

Hating myself every chance I get

It’s getting bad again.

The storm within my mind

A tempest of emotions

No refuge in sight

Each breath becomes aburdene.n

Each step heavy

The questions in the mirror

The face behind the mask

I know it’s getting bad again.

But this time?

It might be too late.

Sometimes I hate my family (rant)

Wed, 01 Apr 2026 20:39:58 +0000

Ok so not my ENTIRE family

But my aunt and uncle are the two being discussed

So I had a sleepover with my cousins at my granny’s house

We’re picking up F and L from their house and my aunt comes out and says hi to me, asks how I’m doing, and then goes to the backseat and says hi to my 5 year old cousin and calls the five year old her FAVORITE right in front of me. Like WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF THAT

And then today my uncle came to pick up the same cousins, and he didn’t even acknowledge the fact that I existed. I mean, sure I was in the corner playing Roblox but normally he says hi. He didn’t say hi or anything else. But he greeted EVERYONE ELSE. Like he knew that I was there because the five year old points at me and one of my cousins and says “And those two didn’t play with me and (other cousin)”

Also F and L never said bye when they were leaving… they just walked out

Also when the five year old cousin moved to our city, it was the time when I REALLY wanted to do gymnastics even though we couldn’t afford it. The same aunt PAYED FOR THE FIVE YEAR OLD to do gymnastics even though the five year old’s parents could easily afford it!

It’s honestly really UNFAIR

Like there is clear favoritism going on here

Until today I hadn’t seen my cousins since December

I guess wanting to have one good experience with my family is too much to ask for

Yeh just needed to rant

-Ivy

Why… (rant)

Sat, 28 Mar 2026 14:52:18 +0000

I think I know why I’m depressed

Ok so I’ve been bullied for years and years

Nowadays I just don’t show a reaction

And I think hiding my feelings is part of it

But also the fact that I couldn’t fight back even if I WANTED to

My parents say “never resort to violence”

I don’t usually WANT to resort to violence

I only do when I need to protect myself

Because bullies don’t leave when you ask nicely

But I kicked someone last year because he was bullying me and wouldn’t leave me alone. I asked nicely so many times and he kept saying no so I kicked him.

I got YELLED AT by a teacher when SECURITY CAMERAS show that HE was provoking ME

And then my parents took my phone away, even though it was literally SELF DEFENSE

Oh- and I TRIED walking away from the jerkface. He followed.

So yeah

And whenever somebody harasses me and my friends, the teachers always find a way to blame US for it, and not the people harassing us

Like really?

The teachers seem to think we just go around being violent

NO

Me and my friends actually stay AWAY from people

And THEY come to US

Yet WE get blamed

So yeah

If anything, THATS why I’m depressed

Because nobody understands and I’m forced to hide my feelings

Like I feel so alone

And it’s destroying all of my happiness

I’m crying so hard that I can’t breathe right now

And I want to talk to my mom about this but really WHAT IS EVEN THE POINT

One of my friends, E, is lucky

With her mom she could punch someone and not get in trouble if she has a good reason for punching someone

And bullying has given me trauma

So now when I get bullied I feel trapped and I feel like I NEED TO fight back

Yeah

Bullying has caused so much damage

It’s caused me trauma, depression, LOTS of self-hate, and forced me to hide my emotions from others around me

Like WHY can’t we all just ACCEPT EACH OTHER and live in PEACE?!

Anyways yeah

I just needed to vent

-Ivy

vent

Fri, 27 Mar 2026 23:54:32 +0000

um. so basically. I wore a safety pin necklace. if you don't know, it's used to show that u uhm..attempted...before, but it can also signify mental struggles (which I have had, and that's why I thought I could wear it.). I also made some STUPID IGNORANT joke about wanting to go to a mental hospital?!??!?!? so, my friend got mad at me. and they thought I was doing it to seem cool, or wear it as an accessory without knowing the meaning. also they were mad because mental health is not something to be taken lightly, which is DEFINITELY true. I told them about my struggles and why I thought I could wear it, and we talked it over. it was kinda just me sobbing while texting but uhh yeah. we are on good terms now, but I still feel so disgusting and horrible. I don't know why they randomly started to forgive me though. my main fear is making mistakes that are ignorant about real things, and hurting others. and that's exactly what I did. nothing can ever make me forget what I did. I'm disgusting and gross and I don't know what to do and i'm scared to approach them at lunch tomorrow because of that stupid thing I did

so um...

Thu, 26 Mar 2026 15:17:46 +0000

what do y'all think of me? like I have a few freinds on here, but like- what do y'all think of me, I'm trying to figure out my rep so I can do things, also KT I HAVE A FETURE IDEA!! you could add a reputation thing, so like, depending on how many upvotes a post gets, that could be like... +10 reputation points(per upvote), and you could add a thingy where you can gift somebody up to 100 reputation points? just an idea, I know your probably trying to work on more features but I think this one would be really cool!

I have SO MUCH TO SAYYYY (huge rant+what is happening)

Thu, 26 Mar 2026 03:27:58 +0000

Ok, for the record, I’m polyamorous. If you don’t like that, go away!!!

So, I have a crush on this boy we will call… J. My friend we will call C. Me, J, and C are best friends. C knows I like J. So, please tell me why since knowing and learning that, C has consistently spent more and more time with him, rubbed it in my face that she is the first choice, etc., while I’m left questioning my self worth and value as a person. I just don’t think that’s a normal response, yk?

Also, when I mention getting love or affection from him (like hugs, he bites, leaning his head on my shoulder and vice versa), she gets quiet and shifts the convo to a different topic. I just find it odd that she seems to be gatekeeping a whole human…

I also think it’s important to note that J got out of a crush/ almost partner, and was heartbroken. Now his ex wants him back, and C is oh-so-mad at his ex. Don’t get me wrong, I’m livid, but I think that C has issues she needs to overcome. She has also identified as lesbian for almost a year, and as soon as I mention liking a close friend, she says she’s questioning that. All I know is that if she goes after him, I’m gonna be really upset because I love this guy so much. And it’s so weird because part of my brain reads affection as flirting, but the logic in me reminds me that he’s always like that.

So, basically, I need to know if that sounds sus to anyone else, if it seems like she also likes him, and how I should approach this situation. I really love this guy and don’t want to lose our friendship, too.

Also, side note: J found a silly photo of me and made it his Safari background??? He then said “Now I can smile every time I see that autistic face :))” and AUGH IDK IF THATS FLIRTING OR WHAT BC IM TWEAKING RN

i strongly dislike when people tell me to turn to god

Tue, 24 Mar 2026 12:22:10 +0000

When i was younger (maybe 8 or 9) i was (certain mental illness/disorder that i won't mention right now because this is a kids site)

I thought i was dirty or impure because of it, so i turned to religion

Most if the media i saw was christian, just like people around me

So i started to pray

i prayed every night and every day for things to "get better" or to become pure again.

if i missed one prayer i had to do it later or i would be disgusting and i would go to heck.

See, children are strange. They don't really block out fear.

Most of the media i saw was people telling me i'd go to heck if i didn't pray a lot, so i believed it.

I felt slightly pressured by people around me to be a "good christian".

My family isn't religious, like, at ALL.

So it was mostly people at my school.

It was one of those christian schools that had assemblies about bible stories.

I prayed 2-3ish times a day and told myself i would go to heck if i didn't.

i was also having intrusive thoughts because of (mental illness/disorder from earlier) and i tried to pray those away too, but i ended up just praying more because i started having disgusting thoughts about god.

i barely believed in god, i just believed that if i did something wrong i would go to heck or god would strike me down immediately.

the cycle kept repeating for around a year.

I eventually stopped being a part of the religion at all.

I'm now part of a different religion that i'm happy with but i still think about that time.

vent

Tue, 24 Mar 2026 02:07:00 +0000

i'm not gonna say too many details because it has to do with a family member (older brother btw...)and I wanna still respect their privacy. so, I always get judged for things I like. it's ridiculous. project sekai? "you need to shower". vocaloid? "fake ai music". alien stage? "eWwW gAy" madoka? "yOuR tOo YoUnG tO wAtCh It" i'm sick of it. i'm genuinely so tired of being judged and bullied for what I love. I am a furry, also. yes, I know, dIsGuStInG.. and I just hate feeling targeted all the time. I hate being "easy to make fun of". it hurts. so bad. I just want privacy and I want to express myself. recently, I got a phone and I have been playing project sekai and gacha life. they constantly ask to see my screen time. and not even because they're concerned. Just so they can SHAME and LAUGH at me. I am so sick of it and it hurts me so bad. they also called me ugly a few times, so that's great.

Mini vent… life sucks :)

Tue, 24 Mar 2026 01:52:35 +0000

So Im probably being forced (by my mom) to move to another city. Bcuz Im not becoming a “good” kid

And Im gonna just run away (again) if we end up moving

Also how I’m doing rn.. not good at all Im very depressed, overdose a lot and just take whatever (stuff) I can get, I do sh a lot, my mental health is just getting worse and worse, But nobody knows that obviously bcuz I always act all fine when I’m around people. So I don’t have anyone I can talk to

anywho byeee love y’all

yall i lost my marbles yesterday shopping in thailand

Sun, 15 Mar 2026 13:10:42 +0000

guys i fumbled so hard

ok i'm in bangkok, yesterday i went to this mall (bang sue junction, 4th floor)
every single FREAKING stall had clothes from my pinterest board- & I ONLY HAD AN HR TO LOOK
there were prob over 100 stalls full of the cutest things i'm like replaying me running through the stalls in my head, ITS KILLING MEEE

dude everything was so swaggy (creds to ely) i'm so done-

also my mom is super strict right- so half the stuff i prob couldn't get- BUT WHAT ABT THE OTHER HALF???

can yall hope or smth that i can go back bc i left with one like hot pink polka dot lace tank ✌️

if yall go to bangkok, go there nd give urself at least 2 hrs ?? (i did the math nd i'd half to spend 30 sec in each stall do go to every one)

Im still so mad

Sat, 14 Mar 2026 11:16:37 +0000

I wasn't gonna talk about it but everytime I think about it my blood boils so maybe talking would help

So basically on Wednesday we were gonna watch a movie and we were gonna merge with another class (for no reason whatsoever)

And we're all sitting down waiting for the movie to start so in the meantime I'm quietly talking to my friends. And it isn't even a full on conver, its like a brief sentence and then going quiet.

So the girl infront of me turns around maybe like 2 times telling me to be quiet... But there's like 10 other people talking on the other side?? And they're all the popular boys too, and it was the main noise source in the room.

So I point this out to her and she's like "Okay, but I'm telling you to be quiet." IS THIS NOT FAVOURITISM OR SOMETHING???

we keep going back and forth for like a while and she's like "you gotta problem with that?" And I'm like YES because you're targeting me rn when there's other people you can run your big mouth off to

So she's like do something about it and oh my gosh if I didn't have a phone to lose, I would have thrown a chair at her.. Im legit not even joking.

And then the boys are like "ooh she clocked your tea" shut up youre just happy you never get reprimanded bc everyone d-rides you

This isn't even something that happened once, it happens SO MUCH. and its SO annoying that everyone goes out of their way to protect these boys (even my own parents did it)

One of these days I'm going to lose my mind bro..

Racism is bad

Sat, 14 Mar 2026 01:42:46 +0000

everyone (except SOME people*) is cool

upvote if you agree!

*read my bio

I’m so mad right now (vent)

Fri, 13 Mar 2026 15:12:20 +0000

My irl best friend just told me to shut up several times for no reason

So we didn’t have school today so I called her and after two minutes she ends the call bcuz I was talking about wildcraft

Then I’m explaining to her that I js wanna talk because I’m lonely and she says shut up and so I’m like “say hello to dnd bcuz I’ll go talk to my friends on KT” and she’s like “cool. I don’t really care”

Like seriously?

mods the photos are kpop idols not people who i should block out

-Ivy

My mouth is sore..

Fri, 13 Mar 2026 03:24:19 +0000

I’m tired of this. It’s the dang adhd meds isn’t it? It’s always my fingers or my mouth. I CANT STOP BITING THEM!! IVE TRIED EVERYTHING. My mouth is sore. I have ulcers / canker sores EVERYWHERE. Make it stop!

Sorry for venting.. I needed to get that off my chest.

It’s all gone… everything. (Vent)

Wed, 11 Mar 2026 06:26:45 +0000

I just realized…

The club

Our group

My friends

It’s all gone

They’re all gone

Our club seems to have disbanded

Our group has clearly split apart

My friends… without the club, without the rest of the group…

I will rarely ever get to talk to them

When I was younger, I told myself that I wouldn’t let something like this happen ever again

But it happened

Yet again

It’s just inevitable

It’s all gone

I’m all alone again

It’s not gonna fix itself

Everyone is gone.

Everything is gone.

(PeterK, don’t even bother respond)

Until dusk…

~ Umber <they/them>

My opinion on KT therians

Sat, 07 Mar 2026 17:40:44 +0000

Alright

*BREATHES*

Hello and Jumalan Terve. I'm Carle, a former user who decided to come back for good.

today, i'll talk about Therians. Yes, therians.

now, before I start. I will expect 9 billion flags. Therians get very defensive, but these are my opinions. I'm also saying this. DO NOT HARASS THERIANS.

So. Therians. The kids that claim they're animals or whatsoever. I don't know much about theriantrophy, other the fact that it's everywhere on KT. They're also known for quadrobics and masks. I'm not a big fan of therians, I do think a lot of them are creative, but I don't relate to the concept that much.

every 2 posts is "Therian friends" or "Therian vent". I cannot be complaining because I used to flood this site with stuff about Scandinavian countries, had people make posts saying KT wasn't the same because of me, but even then I'm Autistic and Scandinavia is my special interest. I don't post as much about Scandinavia, since i'm trying to diverisfy my stuff and post about other things

But I feel like therians just pop up and post a TON about therians, and that's it. There are multiple therian clubs, and some users even try to make KT adapt to be for therians.

I'm not saying therians MUST get banned, i'm saying to please try to tone it down. This feels like unblocked games all over again, except this has been since 2024.

Safety risks are also bad. There were plenty of users asking for therian friends in their area, sometimes going very specific. I saw somebody reveal their school on here for therian friends. Therian users like Adi were very controversial for anti-Religious posts and posting too much therian content.

Also, it's strange how most therians are girls, gen alpha, and live in the United States or Europe. Notice?

I don't hate therians. I'm just asking please tone it down. Not all Non-Therians want to see one billion therian posts.If I was able to tone down my Scandinavian content, you can tone down Therian content

Bye silly swedes

- Carle (WE ARE ALCMMM!!!)

Shout out to @blueb3rry

I wish I could be happy that my life was once better instead of being sad that it isn’t good anymore

Sat, 07 Mar 2026 05:50:23 +0000

I wish I could still be happy

But now, I either feel empty or sad.

November… not even that long ago,

I had such great times.

But I can’t help what wonder,

What happened?

What happened to those good times?

What happened to November?

What happened to my life?

Until dusk…

~ Umber <they/them>

Should I talk to the school counsler

Fri, 06 Mar 2026 20:00:40 +0000

I've been feeling really down lately.. its unmotivated me to do my school work or do anything at all.

i want to do a deep clean in my mind. I've honestly felt like this for a while, and I just don't want it anymore.

I remember I talked to one last time (about my suicidal thoughts, which keep getting stronger by each day) and she told my mom and my mom told my dad and my mom told the rest of the family..

I wonder if therapy would help but I'm too scared to ask and I probably don't deserve it as much as other people do so..

the school medical system sucks and i am livid.

Fri, 06 Mar 2026 17:56:37 +0000

this post may counterargue what my last post was. and i am SO SORRY to the people running KT if they dont like this post but it needs to be said.

If you dont wanna hear about a medical emergency do not read this.

My day today started normal. Boring, uninteresting, whatever. I walked into 3rd period, i have 1st lunch so i was about to leave for lunch when 4 friends (P) (E) (A) (AL) went up to me and said my friend (X) was out of it and something was wrong. I went up to them and they were completely unresponsive. He coughed up his gum and some saliva and was zoned out not moving.

(E) got a trashcan and a chair, me and (A) were trying to get him to sit down. and then he looked to his left and i saw the look in his face that i cannot get out of my head. His eyes were wide and pupils were as tiny as possible, his face was drooping. And then (X) started shaking really badly and i had to stop him from collapsing on the floor. (A) (AL) and (E) were moving tables and then me and (A) were getting him laying down. he was shaking, foaming at the mouth, and turning blue. if its not obvious by now (X) was having a seizure. He doesnt get seizures. we moved him on his side, everyone panicking and hysterical. I called the police.

we had a substitute. She was watching calling the nurse, yelling at us to get away from a SEIZING KID and screaming at me for calling 911. within 2 minutes (X) became responsive again, police and ambulance were here. Substitute still yelling at us when she walked out the room from (X) and was trying to make us leave. (E) was hysterical along with (P) also panicking when finding out. there is now a report investigation on my school, and admins are mad that i called the police because it "Broke procedure"

he was dying. he was turning blue, the sub wasnt doing anything. someone had to do something. we all got kicked out of the class and were told we cant take a quiz from today. i dont care, i told my teacher through email, my parents dont care and said i did the right thing. but school is livid even though i did what medical professionals have explained to all of us to do.

I’m crying

Thu, 05 Mar 2026 21:08:53 +0000

So my mom’s (former) friend used to live in our old house. All this drama happened and the friend moved out. The friend had four kids, and one has been my best friend since I was born

Well today my moms former friend sent some nasty messages to my parents and my dad told me to delete the contact of my long-time bestie

so I just lost another friend

And I barely HAVE any irl friends

So this hurts so much

Especially bcuz I’ve known the person since I was born

So now I’m crying because I’m alone in my room and therefore willing to cry

School was good, and I thought I could have a good day for once. Welp, every time I hope for a good day something bad always happens

So I guess I don’t deserve good days

Anyways yeh

-Ivy

It is official. I HATE my little sister (TW THERIAN STUFF HATERS CLICK AWAY)

Thu, 05 Mar 2026 02:06:03 +0000

So yesterday I posted a little vent about my sis in one of my questions. Guess what she did today? *slightly crazy laugh* So today was a fog day yk the buses are cancelled and all that shart. And my grandparents had to drive us to school they're very nice people they're awesome I love them but they're a little old-fashioned, keep this in mind. So you know what the little gremlin does? We had a whole argument but imma sum it up. She complained 2 my grandparents that I was wearing a tail 2 school (I bring down her social life by wearing a tail apparently), I attempted to argue back but then she breaks down in literal tears, and my grandma said "if you don't stop wearing that tail to school I will tell your dad to take it away" so yeah. I kinda needed to just get that out. NO HATERS IN THE ANSWERS PLZ

Little vent

Thu, 05 Mar 2026 01:06:39 +0000

I don’t know if the people I call my friends would even consider me a friend

I can hardly talk to any of them irl anymore

Our little group is slowly drifting apart

Idk why

But I miss how it used to be

And I wish my friends would realize that I really need them

I’m not doing well, and I bet they can tell.

My past mistakes, my past self, it’s making it me impossible to live

My friend E, who is also my crush, practically has an entire fan club.

He has so many friends

And I don’t.

Our little group is nowhere as valuable to them because they had other places to be

But I don’t.

I don’t have anywhere to belong

And everything all repeats

And from everything I learned over the years, if I want things to change, it’s gonna hurt

I don’t know what to do

Until dusk…

~ Umber <they/them>

I hate communism glazers

Thu, 05 Mar 2026 00:04:27 +0000

It’s not even a good system gang fr just shut up