Maybe it’s cause I’m a teenager. Idk. But I’m so confused. Please don’t come at me for this post, this is a dump of information I was hoping to just see if I could have some guidance over, and I’m not trying to be offensive.
Something really has been nagging me recently.
What if I’m straight? My hardest crushes, ones that make me BLUSH, are on guys and only guys. But the thing is I think I’m straight right now but I find women hot and could imagine myself being with one but at the same time men are better, men actually give me butterflies, and men are gorgeous. Plus, my crush on that one girl I feel like I’ve recently been forcing myself to like. Yes, she’s really cute, but I don’t like-like her. At least right now. BECAUSE IVE GOTTEN BUTTERFLIES FROM HER BEFORE. But I’ve been straight (basically??) for like a month now. But I’m abrosexual. Biflux. Thats when I hate myself cause my sexuality is so dang confusing. And yes, I have internalized homophobia I guess (?), and like to tell myself I’m faking it, because my shifting sexuality, but I don’t want to accept my sexuality shifts, because what if it doesn’t actually shift because I’m confused? You’d think I’d know this about myself but no, I don’t. I’m actually seriously wondering if I’m just… not. Not anything. Maybe I’ve been corrupted. But WHEN I SEE WOMEN I SOMETIMES WANT TO SCREAM.
Dear Lord, I come to you today with a plea to help guide me in the right direction. Please give me strength to get through this, whether it’s actually a part of me, something you created, or something the devil has cursed me with, or maybe even not there…
Rip to the fact that I don’t remember how to pray.
Also rip to the fact that I don’t feel like explaining my religious status quite yet 
I’d love getting some advice, from both LGBTQ+ supporters and non supporters. Thank you.
