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LIFE UPDATE EVEN THOUGH NO ONE CARES :

my friend life sucks rn

i have like 1-2 close friends and even they ignore me for the most part

and they even do "three strikes and youre out" when were hanging out and i can get a strike by talking or making a joke or smth

plus this one girl who i miss so much who used to be my best friend now just ignores me and sits on this lil hill thingy with her friends and boyfriend at recess -

good 4 her ig but i just miss her so so so so dang much -

 she never even looks at me anymore and when she does its only for a second and i try to smile but my body doesnt let me and i just end up looking mad

she still has me on her kidztalk about me page as her best friend which im grateful for

plus today we had a double period in science (45 min class, 4 min break 45 min class) and i went out to go to my locker,

and the second i left the classroom door, these girls, lets call them s, n, k.s., and k.h. (kh is the one girl) they walk in

and like i got so scared so i jumped back, and s started laughing at me :/

anyways hopefully kh doesnt see this bc shes on kt too

so yeah :/

idk like im always the second choice, the friend who walks behind on the sidewalk/hallway, the friend who is not invited to group chats, sleepovers, study times, and parties

ive learned to get used to it, but last year i had a massive crush and an awesome bestfriend (kh) to distract myself from other stuff

and now i dont

so thats why like im in my depressed era

and im so so so busy with schoolwork and stuff so thats why im not on kt as much

idk if theres smth wrong with my personality or something

even 30 seconds in after meeting someone they alr feel uncomtforable and like idk whats wrong with me

my closest friends at the time (call them i and e), they both do that 3 strikes thing, and they both get so annoyed at my jokes

in the summer, i took kh and my mum to china with me for a maths camp thing, (alot of stuff happened there too but its too dangerous to write here - she could see it plus alot is personal plus i dont want to be mean)

and on the plane, i wrote up this list of rules for the next school year (the one im in now, 8th grade)

i didnt stick to that list

alot of my class hates me more than ever

so apparently some girls (s, n, kh, and ks) those 4, wanted to study during flex and my flex (study hall) teacher wouldnt let them and n got a behaviour mark (detention) for asking to study with friends for multiple classes in the library so i feel bad for them about that

idk

so yeah thats basically all

im always taking advice

mods pls approve

hopefully she doesnt find this and if u do, i rlly want to be friends but idk how and things will never be the same again

omg i miss you so much

i called evans lil sister a somewhat rude (but not to the point that its offensive) name during recess and she kicked me so hard i have a massive bruise on my ankle

plus during volleyball i started crying (in gym class pe) bc im so bad and my classmates make fun of me sm

i swear if i hear mr f (pe teacher) say "gOoD trY" one more time to me ill crash out so bad

plus evan broke up with me and like a bunch of other stuff going on

ive alr lost enough ... iyk

i missed a rehearsal for my group in the school musical today but im so burnt out anyways

ive been writing and editing this for like 15 minutes ...

hopefully the mods will approve
sorry for that unreg - like rant XD

anyways bye ig

-asm

Answer 1

That’s sad, those people shouldn’t be treating you like that. What kind of friends have a three strikes rule, they aren’t 8th grade teachers. And being broken up with at on top of it all. I would adopt you into my friend group if I could.

Just remember you are strong, you are amazing and you don’t need to be or act a certain way just to fit in. If your friends are real, they should like you for who you are. You can get through this and KT will always be here for you.

(Corvettes advice is pretty good tbh so listen to that as well )

- Petal

Comments

You're so sweet omg

And I will listen to both of you, it's nice to know that at least my online community of friends care <3

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we are always here, And we all care. <3

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youre so sweet lol

Answer 2

that's awful.. I hope everything gets better, I hope you find the right people because friends like that don't deserve you

feel free to pm me anytime, I'm always here to help <3

Comments

ty, maybe i will

Answer 3

I tend to struggle with relationships as well. I have really no close friends since we don't necessarily click. I guess you just have to be patient for someone who just gets you to come into your life. But chances are it won't come on its own, try meeting new people and being really uncomfortable. Yeah it's extremely un-comfy but if you don't act what might you miss?

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i mean yeah

but there are no new people at my school and the people that are there think im weird :/

Answer 4

This is actually really sad.

First of all, lemme give you some advice.

If anyone isn’t treating you right or making your mental state worse in any way, just unfriend em. You’d rather not have them as a friend than have them actively making you feel worse as a person.

And also, stand up for yourself. Be the bigger person. It just makes me sad when I see this kinda stuff and you ain’t doing nothin about it. Don’t let anyone boss you around. Don’t let anyone hurt you. Don’t let anyone insult you. You’re either gonna stand up for yourself all the way, or not at all. That’s how it is. You’re better than the people that mess with you, so act like it.

At the end of the day, this is genuinely really sad, and I just hope things’ll get better for you. Godspeed.

Comments

But if I drop the friends that make fun of me sometimes I will be left with no irl friends in my grade left

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They arent even your friends in the first place.

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@anastasia

It’s better to have no friends than friends who make you feel like no good.

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i guess ...