I was sitting here studying for all my AP classes and then wondered why I was working so hard and why I was so stressed. All of this for a college. And then I realized as long as I go to a good college, it doesnt matter if the school is prestige or if its in some rural city cause Im gonna get a job anyways. And then I was sitting here thinking about the costs of tuition, housing, and all that for college and realized all the billionaires could rlly use their money to help out these struggling college kids. But if billionaires wanted to spend their money on others, then we wouldn't have all the troubles in the world rn. So they don't spend their money on others and keep it to themselves. But at the same time, they worked hard to deserve their money right, and if all the billionaires decided to give out money and help everyone out, it would be seen as "communist" and too far left. So that means the rich stay rich and the rest of us have to work hard, or struggle and barely make it. I feel like that's unfair but there's nothing you can do about bc if money is gave to us easy, we'd never have to work hard. Now I don't know what to think of selfish billionaires.
But then I realized I'm just one human on a tiny rock in space filled with 8 billion humans and my thoughts aren't that important after all. Why am I sitting here stressing when we're floating around on a rock in space that's gonna disappear someday.
Why am I going to college. To make money and get a job and have a family but WHY all of those other things? I just don't understand. I swear I'm a smart kid lol, just having an existential crisis.
