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TW sh and sewer slide stuff idrk common sense applicable here

okee so today I relapsed :((( sad sad ik but thats not the pt of this vent (it kinda is but like not specifically)

and I was scrolling on insta and I happened to see a reel about "my grave will prolly say 2010-2080 but it was almost 2010-2026" and there was a pic of her at the hospital and the caption said it was a sewer slide attempt

And one of my mutuals liked it (if u dont know how insta works you can see which of your followers like

And i don't know her very well and its impossible to fully know what someone is struggling with, I should know that by now. But I just felt this incontrollable anger that her arms are clean in all her pics (even tho rationally I know even if they werent ofc thats something one would hide in their posts) and she has a perfect life (even tho rationally I know thats impossible) and so what right does she have to evidently be identifying with SHers????

I know

gatekeeping SH

and I hate that I feel like that because all my rational thoughts know that's wrong but emotions are mutually exclusion from rationality

also uh im really happy bc even tho i relapsed I threw away some painkillers I was... saving so thats muy bien :))))

have a great day/night my peeps!!

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Aw I’m sorry :(

It’s Okk I relapsed today to ToT

Ikwym, but not all sh’ers do it on there arms, I personally do it on the top of my shoulders and the part of my thighs that my shorts cover.(that’s how I got away with it for over a year)

But I think you know that(the first part)

I also gatekeeper Sh, in a way, too—so don’t feel to bad abt it

That’s rlly good that you threw them away! I still havnt thrown away my….collection yet.

I hope you have a great day/night too!

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Im sorry :((( I would say pm me but thats not exactly an option lols

I swim a lot and so they would show when I wore a swimsuit if I did it on my thighs, plus then my parents would want to make sure I wasn't mutilating myself

I hope at some point you do throw your stash away but ik how hard it is. If you need someone to talk to I am here :))

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It’s Okk lolz

Yes, please don’t do it on your thighs ToT. My swim suit has a skirt (ToT)so that’s how I got away with swimming

Ty