I'm so sorry I keep venting about Sev and you may just think I'm trying to draw attention to myself, but I actually loved him very very much and it hurt to be lied to.
I have never dated anyone in my life but this felt like a breakup..
So it started in late May. I always saw him at recess and he would always be talking to me. Then school ended and I could not stop thinking about him. One day when he passed my house on his bike, I saw him with a girl. I found out recently that that was his gf.
When school began, in certain occasions I saw him and we would hold eye contact until I would look away, since he made me so nervous. I repeatedly felt him staring at me all the time.
A few weeks ago, at the orange shirt day ceremony, his friends and him came under my umbrella since it was cold and rainy. When his friends had left, he stayed right inside me and we almost held hands. We held eye contact and smiled at each other.
Then, yesterday, I was working on an essay in the hall and he say near his classroom door, chewing on an Apple and his nostrils were flaring (thats what he does when he is nervous). We just stared. Several days ago he said he had never liked me (to my friend Emma) and said he would never speak to me ever again. He actually meant it. But he did say hi to me a few times and is still acting the same way as usual.
More on his gf:
His gf wanted to take a break an then they had a fight and now they are no longer together.
He is still playing with my emotions. Should I love him still? Should I hate him? Please help me.
