Please don't....
Please we all love you so much and we need you
I know it feels impossible to keep moving, you are swimming through cement that is slowly hardening around you, swallowing you until you are go under and you can't resurface, you will always have people that love you and need you. It is not impossible to break out, I promise. You are loved by a community of wacky, weird, fun, silly, and unique people. And every single one of those people hurt. You are part of that community, so don't forget that it will get better. Keep going, keep going, keep going, keep going, keep going, keep going. You can do it. We all love you so much.
As a wise little fish once said, "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming!"