What's wrong?

Question

I can't do this anymore. I feel so guilty for being all depressed and sad yet.. my life is great

Yet for some reason I feel like a odd ball in this happy world, it's like im sad for no reason. My mummy keeps asking why I always use the word "hate" and say im going to drop out of school

Im really trying my best to stay alive for others, I might be young but life sucks...at least from what I see it as, my sister treats my brother so kind and loves him unconditionally, I knwo she loves me too but I dont feel the love at all. Yeah I might shut her out but mostly I try to do something with her, then she dont want me to be around, she always tells me shut up when im too loud with my friends. She is always on call with her boyfriend and she yells at me to get out the room  and I wait a long  time. 

I have lost passion for dance I feel so out of place like im a pig in a room full of skinny people

Now you might say there are others bigger than me and I get that but its just how I feel, especially when it comes down to liking somebody, I already know the answer is a no

I hate when people compare me to my father I do love my father but always being compared to him throughout life from when he was gone to now when he is back. The only thing im good at is being smart but its not enough, my teacher knows im not as confident but its not my fault I stopped going outside because I hate being out I feel like im getting judged. School is the absolute worst I feel so drained and tired, then people tell me to stop being so negative like why are you telling me how to live yeah being negative all the time is bad but its reality 

They always say to be positive but I lost taht a long time ago from bullying and my family having favoritism, I still dont feel the love i give, I try so much for everyone but what is it all for if they will leave me? I'm so close to just letting everything taking over. I hate life so much I cant just cant anymore sweetheart

Im not trying to get pity im just venting because I rely on people here, sweethearts you make me feel loved especially twinkie. I love everyone on here I hope you all stay amazing talk to me whenever im free unless im at school but I will try to make time for everyone 

Nana out! 

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Does this mean you'll be leaving us?

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Like how? Leaving the platform or you know i dont know

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I meant leaving the platform... but please don't do either.

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Ohh

Im trying i will try not go leave you guys either ways I will try

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Okay. Thank you for the reassurance.

Tbh I'd probably crash out a bit if you left the platform. If the other way I may be would hire someone to find your location and would send a note of guilt (basically, make a list of everyone you've talked about and how'd they messed up).

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It might sound weird to others but thats means you really care and I care about you all especially twinkie and you 

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Thank you for accepting my love (p/) language (I guess we could call it) :)

(Obviously, I care about you as well)

You remind me of the quote:  "The people who exhibit the most kindness have expirecended the most pain."

You're so wholesome, and I hate what the world does to you-type people, you know?

So... yeah.

Try not to let the world break you, alright?

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AWW I REMIND YOY OF THAT QUOTE 

I feel flattered and i promise it won't!

ALSO OF COURSE I WILL ACCEPT THE CARE YOU GIVE ME  and in return you get my love!

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YAYY!
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Answer 1

ur not alone. keep that in mind

also is that han 

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IT IS HAN  and thank you 

Answer 2

um let me know if you wanna talk 

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I will someday 

Answer 3

Well, sometimes I feel that way as well, especially recently. At the end of the day, I try to be positive, and it usually works out, despite the overwhelming negatives of life. I wish you the best, cuz that melancholy feeling is never good. Just remember, you’re loved by many people, despite it not seeming so.

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I get that thank you 

Answer 4

Nana... :(

Yeah. The world sucks, but dropping out of school will make it worse. Trust.

If you don't want to dance anymore, then don't. Take a break. You're not a pig.

So far in my life I've been rejected more than 10 times. Each time, it sucked. A lot. There was a time where I thought that I would find nobody. Until I found someone. She was from a different state, and I got her number before heading home. It reminded me that everyone has someone, no actually, multiple people who are waiting for someone like you, no matter what you think of yourself. You just gotta be more patient, Nana. Statistics show that in almost every school at least 1 student has a crush on you, but is too shy to say it.

There was a time where I felt the same way. Letting life take over, as you put it. At that time, I didn't have someone to live for (or at least, nobody worth living for), so I instead focused on the damage I would do on people. The guilt they might feel and how I caused it. It made me pity them, in doing so, I held on to life. I wasn't happy, no, but I was alive. Until I gained a proper friend group. These people I couldn't talk to about my problems, they aren't good at comforting, but at least they made me smile.

So, please, Nana. Hang in there. The right people will come to you, given time. Just... be patient, okay?

How else are we supposed to meet on stage of SNL?

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I will keep hanging in there maybe something will change!

Also how are we supposed to if I'm younger than you or am I? 

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You're younger.
You told Quadron that you're 12, and had my 15th in June (i'm an unc )

(FYI; I don't stalk your account. It was in my updates since I have you as one of my favorites)

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OH MY! im in July  and i am younger so I was right! And I also have you on my favorites too 

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Even if I was 12, I'd stop be older 

...wait. What age did you think I was if not old as hecky 15?

Also: can I just say that I am delighted to hear that I'm on someone's favorite list?! Thank you this means a lot to me :DD

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I thought you were like 13 or 17 AT MOST 

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17?!?! 

WHY WOULD I BE 17?? 

WHY WOULD YOU BE TALKING TO A 17 YEAR OLD GUY ON THE INTERNET?!

A 17 year old male, befriending 12 year old girls is very suspicious. If I were you and suspected one of my best friends on the internet was a 17 year old guy, I'd be very cautious and concerned about him all together. 

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YOUR A GUY? I mean I did know but lowkey forgot 

AND I MADE FRIENDS WITH OLD MEN MYSELF SO PLEASE ITS NOT SUSPICIOUS 

I made friends with 19 year old people on the internet so lowkey used to it 

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You're brave.

That's all I'm gonna say.

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Aww thank you!  

the old men in question are like elders with dogs, my dad's friends, and peoples fathers 

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You just insinuated that 19 yo are people's fathers lol.

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WHAT THE FREAK DOES INSINUATED MEAN 

(im a 7th grader, you unc so dont expect me to know certain words )

ALSO DONT TWIST MY WORDS OUT OF CONTEXT I DIDNT MEAN IT LIKE THAT 

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Loll :)

Small child of mine, insinuated (pronounced: in-sin-you-ate-ed) means, "with evidence, you can assume" (you can use this in your next essay).

So what I was saying is that with the given conversation, you said that on the internet you made friends with 19 year olds, then after you said the  "old men in question [which, given your age we can cross out the fact that you could consider 19 as old] are people's fathers"
Thus, I can argue that you are friends with a 19 year old who is a father.

You understand?

Aw, man. I wanted to summon Dtrippy. Guess not then.

Answer 5

Iz alright. Don't worry too much about what other people think because everyone is always going to have an opinion and you can't please everyone. And tbh, I've seen your fit reveal and you ain't really overweight..

I have a tip, which can be hard, but I think it can help. Whenever you have a negative thought, either about yourself, or someone else, replace it with a positive one. If you think "my sister always tells me to shut up, she hates me" think of something good she does for you too.. idk your situation, but I promise there's something.. or if you think "everyone hates me", think of all the people who like you and realize that you're just lying to yourself. .. It really can help.. maybe not at first, but it will get you into the habit of thinking more positive thoughts. And tbh, if you are having trouble thinking of something positive.. just ask someone. Maybe a friend you trust.

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The thing is taht I dont wanna annoy the person if I do talk to someone

I end up being quiet and bottling everything up