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I'm having the worst time right now. I'm moving in 29 days from VA to Alaska. I've been in VA since 4th grade and I'm in 7th. There are some kids in school that make me so stinking mad. one of them calls me a name that happened months ago and every time he says it makes me so mad on the inside but I cant show that I'm mad otherwise he'll do it more until I do something worse than spill some stupid words out. the thing is, this kid is popular so of course he has people who follow his actions and even make life worse for me. I have so few friends and even fewer even care what happens to me. Those who do understand how I feel and actually listen to me are friends I've known for years. I don't remember things as easily as others and people are mad when I cant remember something like their birthday when they have seen time and time again that I have the memory of a goldfish. My mind does things that I don't understand and I try to figure out how it works by seeing my zodiac, seeing mental disorders I might have, but I never feel like I found something new out for me whenever I do. Whenever I'm high strung, I have a sass in my voice that I don't mean to have and it makes my mom so mad whenever I'm talking to her. I connect with fictional characters easier than actual people, which means I cant read people easily but I can see things in fictional characters as easily as breathing (like Ragatha and all of her mental scars, Wolf and her fear of being with people because of what happened with one of her mute friends when she was little,  Jax and his fear for losing friends, Leo and his anxiety in being the perfect leader, Hunter with his feeling of needing to show he's worth something, to name a few) I HATE FEELING LIKE I NEED TO PROVE IM WORTH SOMETHING AND THAT ILL BE DISOWNED IF I DONT HAVE A WORTH!!! AAAAGGGHHH!!! I want to let my siblings have their own shadow, but I want to make sure that they don't make the same mistakes that I have. That one quote between Luz and Hunter, "At least you have your life figured out" "At least you can choose your own" shows how it feels for the oldest. Sorry about the long vent, I've never done this before

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Omg! I have had that happen to me, i was called “goggles” because of my glasses (that my mom picked out)

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I was called school crash out, clarinet crash out, and currently called school burner (that's the name that upsets me). the names only come from band because stupid Duke, the kid who's making these names, is in band and he's in my English and history. the third name was because I was describing how mad I was and Duke overheard. the admin even got involved because the moment the beel rang, all you could hear was "(my name) said she wanted to (I'm not putting what I said, but it had something to with the school)!".