um. so basically. I wore a safety pin necklace. if you don't know, it's used to show that u uhm..attempted...before, but it can also signify mental struggles (which I have had, and that's why I thought I could wear it.). I also made some STUPID IGNORANT joke about wanting to go to a mental hospital?!??!?!? so, my friend got mad at me. and they thought I was doing it to seem cool, or wear it as an accessory without knowing the meaning. also they were mad because mental health is not something to be taken lightly, which is DEFINITELY true. I told them about my struggles and why I thought I could wear it, and we talked it over. it was kinda just me sobbing while texting but uhh yeah. we are on good terms now, but I still feel so disgusting and horrible. I don't know why they randomly started to forgive me though. my main fear is making mistakes that are ignorant about real things, and hurting others. and that's exactly what I did. nothing can ever make me forget what I did. I'm disgusting and gross and I don't know what to do and i'm scared to approach them at lunch tomorrow because of that stupid thing I did
