I'm jealous of my best friend! I don't want to be I just am! So last year we kind of did everything toghether! And this year well she's going to Co-op and I'm not going intill next year! and I am so JEALOUS!! I want to go I'm so tired of sitting around home! It was fine when I knew she was doing the same thing! but know she gets to go to school dances and have a great time and ugghhggh! Also where doing a dance class with all of her co-op friends and that's just awkward! I mean she doesn't really know them but kinda yk??
Idk I just want to live my life I'm tired of not having a schueludle I'm tired of doing nothing! I need a life! I want to do SOMETHING!!!
Also I'm just kind of depressed I feel like all my friends kinda are going through hard stuff all at the same time so I kinda have to be HAPPY ALL THE TIME! And it's super tiring! I mean I feel bad for even sharing my feelings are probs! Also I really want to go to a school dance but I can't intill next year
And the Holidays are coming up which is super hard time for me bc all my cousins are older and the one that is younger has more cool stuff than me! I me it's so not fair! All my cousin think I'm stupid bc I'm homeschooled and a don't have a phone! Also with the elections my fam is kinda devadid so it's not fun!
Every week I get teased about being homeschooled with my friends! Or not having a phone! I've tried to tell my parents I'm tired of being that weird homeschooler who doesn't have a phone but they don't understand they think I just want it bc everyone else has one! aljsf
Also I've been thinkin about yk ending it just just thinking about it! Pls don't tell me the hotline number and pls don't tell me to tell my parents! They don't understand I single thing about me! I've tried talking they just think I'm overreacting! They wonder why I hide in my room! bc whenever I come out a i get critazited for being who I am! Pls don't yell at me for saying bad stuff at my parents! They love me! But they think where stuck in 1980 where kids had wall phones! Where not I need a phone!
Sorry that was a long rant! Have a good day!
