This is gonna be my longest post probably.
I feel like I've made lots of mistakes in my life, about how I eat, how I dress, what ambitions I have...I just feel-idk. I have no idea what I mean. I did things wrong, I am so sensitive, I made mistakes by being friends with someone toxic, I feel really ugly, I feel like I don't eat enough. I kind of regret life sometimes-but then I think about happy and exciting things and decided life is wonderful. And then I think about how we only live once. That hurts me badly. I don't wanna live forever , but i don't wanna die either. I wish I could re-do my life an make it better. Make the right choices, study for tests I failed, and just fix all the **** I went through. (Sorry, I had to censor that). I wish I paid more attention in math. I wish I had better friends. I wish I was pretty. I wish I didn't eat so much junk food. The list could go on and on. You guys might not understand me, and I dont blame you at all.
I wish I was prettier because who's gonna like someone as ugly as me?? Who is gonna even wanna be my friend?? I hate this. I hate it.
Last year, all the boys didnt like me at all. They said I was ugly and it hurt. No, they didnt day that because they liked me. They actually meant it. I took it to heart, and now I feel self-conscious.
I feel like I have to do make up in order to be prettier.
I just feel like all my mistakes will lead up to a consequence.
I think about all those other girls who are pretty, and how Taylor Swift and other celebrities grew up natural beauties. I am constantly comparing myself to them I hate it.
Sorry for the vent. I just had to do it. I need to know how to feel confident:(
