Why… (rant)

Question

I think I know why I’m depressed

Ok so I’ve been bullied for years and years

Nowadays I just don’t show a reaction

And I think hiding my feelings is part of it

But also the fact that I couldn’t fight back even if I WANTED to

My parents say “never resort to violence”

I don’t usually WANT to resort to violence

I only do when I need to protect myself

Because bullies don’t leave when you ask nicely

But I kicked someone last year because he was bullying me and wouldn’t leave me alone. I asked nicely so many times and he kept saying no so I kicked him.

I got YELLED AT by a teacher when SECURITY CAMERAS show that HE was provoking ME

And then my parents took my phone away, even though it was literally SELF DEFENSE

Oh- and I TRIED walking away from the jerkface. He followed.

So yeah

And whenever somebody harasses me and my friends, the teachers always find a way to blame US for it, and not the people harassing us

Like really?

The teachers seem to think we just go around being violent

NO

Me and my friends actually stay AWAY from people

And THEY come to US

Yet WE get blamed

So yeah

If anything, THATS why I’m depressed

Because nobody understands and I’m forced to hide my feelings

Like I feel so alone

And it’s destroying all of my happiness

I’m crying so hard that I can’t breathe right now

And I want to talk to my mom about this but really WHAT IS EVEN THE POINT

One of my friends, E, is lucky

With her mom she could punch someone and not get in trouble if she has a good reason for punching someone

And bullying has given me trauma

So now when I get bullied I feel trapped and I feel like I NEED TO fight back

Yeah

Bullying has caused so much damage

It’s caused me trauma, depression, LOTS of self-hate, and forced me to hide my emotions from others around me

Like WHY can’t we all just ACCEPT EACH OTHER and live in PEACE?!

Anyways yeah

I just needed to vent

-Ivy

Answer 1

Imma say. Very sorry for what you are going for now (I have tried to kill myself before so ik how to help) Firstly take a deep breath and name 5 things u can see,feel and touch then contact Lifeline or kidshelpline if you ever want to quit the game called living. Its ok to feel sad or depressed its normal but from what you have described it isn't come and go (which what i face sometimes) for you its constant which is really bad. Change schools and try and tell me why they are bullying you maybe we can solve it together

Answer 2

i'm so sorry.....I think u should call the police or smth depending on what they're like in ur area

again I'm so sorry...

Answer 3

I hope things get better for you!

One of my friends said that her last school, a bully cornered her and STARTED UNZIPPING HER PANTS and then she punched him in self-defense and SHE GOT IN TROUBLE!

The world we live in is really unfair :(

I’m probably going to get bullied to heck and back in high school

Until dusk…

~ Umber <they/them>

(Mods plz approve)

Comments

Danggg your friends story is crazy

And yeah this world IS very unfair

And bullying is why I’m scared for middle school

-Ivy

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tell her she should call the police (depending on what theyre like) or a helpline thing cuz that's not ok on so many levels....

does she know his name?

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well, it happened several years ago now… it’s probably too late to call the police.

Until dusk…

~ Umber <they/them>

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i'd still do It so its on the kids permanent record if that's a thing....again I'm so sorry

Answer 4

Im so sorry that this is happening to you. Bullying and harassment is unacceptable behaviour.

 as someone who has been majorly harassed during primary school (yr 2-6). I think sometimes it’s necessary to fight back no matter the consequences. I punched a guy for choking me and harassing my friends. He never bothered me again for a bit.

If it’s really bad and no one is listening you should call the police or your equivalent of Kids Helpline. They are always open to listen because that’s their job. But try and only call the police if you get physically injured or are in a very dangerous or life threatening situation.

I hope this helps.