Please don't kill yourself. It won't accomplish anything, it will not help you, it will not help those around you, and if there is such thing as the afterlife, your emotions will not disappear, they will worsen. Also, considering you say you have anxiety and depression, don't rely on medications to cure mental disorders. Asthma, eczema, cancer, okay yeah, those you would need medication. But for mental disorders, medication will not cure you. They can control symptoms, or they could worsen them and make you feel synthetic, but they cannot cure you. Medication for mental disorders is like a crutch. And people who have mental disorders, in this metaphor, are like people who have a leg injury of some sort. They could either walk with a crutch that they rely on for the rest of their life because they don't know how to walk without it, or they could heal without a crutch, maybe with therapy. Medications for mental disorders are not cures, so don't depend on them, you can choose to walk, you can choose to tell any demeaning parts of yourself that you are worth it and you can believe it too, and you can choose to become stronger than you are, just don't be mean to yourself by thinking of killing yourself. Look at depression this way for a sec, imagine there are two of you. Would you go up to the other one and murder them? You wouldn't. So don't do it to yourself. Love yourself. You're perfect the way you are, even with all the other stuff. And for your own sake with anxiety, don't worry too much. Take everything one moment at a time, and breathe slowly. Look around you, stop and smell the roses.