please help

Question

When I was about 3/4 my dad spanked me once or twice and my dad is also a loud person. Whenever I get into trouble, i’m mostly worried about my dad, not the consequences. I worry about him yelling at me and that he might spank me again. My dad has threatened to throw away everything I have multiple times and he always seems to me mad at me.

Last week i hit someone with my lunch box, which I got 3 day OSS for and today I hit slapped someone in the face and I have 5 day OSS, the school said that their parents can press charges against me if they want. (i hit people because they have been continuously threatening my friend, makes up false allegations, and the school has done nothing about it even after telling them 10+ times)

Ever since I was in preschool, ive been hitting or yelling at people out if anger, which has caused me to be kicked out of preschool, have numerous suspensions, and office visits. I act out without thinking about what Im doing

I feel bad but im too scared to apologize

Answer 1

As long as the spanking and the yelling isn't physically and emotionally hurting you and you feel safe at home u should be ok I think

but if you dont feel safe and it is hurting you and you've told ur dad how it makes u feel speak to a trusted adult and seek help!

Answer 2

maybe u should stop hitting people. if u dont like the way u got hit by your dad then why do u feel that its ok to hit others? have u considered that

Answer 3

Why are you hitting people with a lunch box in the first place lil bro 

Answer 4

You are not alone, parents wise.

Mine have threatened, and followed, those threats. I did get spanked when I was being naughty. But not anymore. Dunno why, but I don't. Try to make people's lives better, instead of hitting them. You've already experienced what it's like, so why inflict that harm apon another?

Apologies are hard, but that's just part of life.