Rant / vent

Question

Why when I'm at my lowest nobody answers  and then when I'm feeling good there like I know u why are u sad or you look sad like please get you facts strait I'm always there for everyone call me at 3 am I will answer and be there for them but I send one text in the morning gets ignored they always discount my feelings like conversations like this

Me: guys can I tell u something

1: sure

Me : my panic attacks are getting worse like idk what to do I just get so stressed

2 : I mean are u sure there panic attacks  because there really serious and not something to joke about

Me : I know ??

1 ya like are u sure it's not mental break downs your having mental break downs not panic attacks

3: ya I mean like I have like 5 a day I should know

Me : oh ok

2 stop being so selfish and.spoiled like 3 has so much bigger problems than u help comfort her instead

Like what  I did suffer from panic attacks for months until I finally as some people described got fixed and then everyone is like just leave them I can't because I'm scared they know some sectors and there just plain abusive I have scars and bruises from them they note me they slap me the punch me pinch me and dig there nails in to me and those are only my school friends in my estate they.act like I'm there bodyguard like a 5 year old was throwing rocks at us and everyone just turned to me and was.Like be a shield I speak a little to loud they make fun of me and like I'm not there for example no he doesn't he was coming over hear anyways everone says shut up you talk to loud and then are like to each other omg she was talking so loud like everyone was laughung  at her  and I once opend.up just a tiny bit later to find out she posted on a group chat that I  wernt in and said omg treats such an emotional wreck thanks a lot

Answer 1

Those do not sound like friends they sound like bullies, if they deny you,abuse you, and compare you. try dropping them and finding new people. trust me, it will be much better if you do so.try talking to people on the internet, they often are way nicer than real life people. but make sure to be careful of who you talk to. ( you prob know that ) that must hurt a lot though, i really hope it gets better.

Answer 2

Wow