I’m questioning myself again. I know that abrosexual people can go months without having their sexuality change. I’ve only exactly felt bi for the past month. I’ve realized that sexualities are a very fluid thing, even if you have a specific sexuality. Just like preference, you could be bisexual and then one day rather be with a man over a woman. I think most people do that occasionally. And those days you’d prefer a “bad boy” over the nerd. You get what I mean? I really don’t ever feel anything besides bi anymore and occasionally it’s like asexual or aromantic, but not really. And most people have those days anyway where romance doesn’t seem good at that moment, right?
I’m really confused. I am okay with like, dating someone nonbinary or whatever I guess, which wouldn’t make me bi, but I would prefer a boy or a girl, but omni feels wrong. And thats not pansexual. And bisexual is just kind of something I felt a lot when I did change constantly. But that’s not bisexual, if I’d be with someone that isn’t a girl or a boy or a girl or a boy.
Honestly, “queer” is all I can accurately describe myself as. I suppose I am still abrosexual… my sexuality is fluid…
…but labeling myself like that doesn’t feel the same…
I don’t know if you guys have any helpful pointers. I thought I figured myself out. I don’t even know. I’ve been questioning a lot lately. I wish I could accurately figure it out. Some people just go “I always knew I was gay.” Really, I’ve never known at all. And I think the only reason I felt so comfortable with abrosexual is because it was really open in letting myself express my sexuality. Thinking about it now, I think I’ve been questioning while even using that label. I wasn’t thinking, “Oh, who do I like today?” Underneath that it was more of “Who do I like??”
I don’t get it. I really don’t. All this stuff is confusing me. I know for a fact I like men and women. Others… it depends. I usually have a preference. That’s abrosexual. But I don’t get it, because it just feels like im only questioning.
Tbh, honestly everything feels fluid at this point. Even my personality. I might just need to let who I like go and focus on other things. I just want to be able to tell someone, “I am ___.”
