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As some of you may have noticed, I've been gone for the past couple of days. I feel that you are entitled to an explanation (I already made a post about this but KT didn't approve it). About a week ago, I made a post saying fair well. Thanking those who were kind to me, Namely Corvettefan1982, Twinkie Fingies and Booker12(There are others). And wishing you all well. That evening I did something I will forever regret ( I won't say exactly what but I think you get the gist). I have been struggling with mental health and self harm for years. I was getting better but my life took a downward spiral. I got kicked out of my moms house and now live with my dad and step dad. I got into a fight with my boyfriend and aren't on speaking terms. My younger siblings refuse to speak with me because they think that mom is right and my older sister is emotionaly and mentaly absent. I'm not that close with my "Dad" and I don't want to be a burden on Luke more than I already am. I have had no one to turn and am struggling to push forward. I'm sorry for venting but I had to get it all out. My whole life I have been the adult, caring for everyone and never caring for myself. For my younger siblings, for my older sister after her break. For my mom as a child when she had her own problems. I'm quite frankly sick of it.  I'm trying to get better yet every time I manage to get on my feet someone comes and knocks me down.  So I'm done being the adult, I'm going to live free and do what I want. And see where life takes me . I'll still be on kids talk tho, yall are like family to me at this point, and I owe you all anways.

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Dude listen life sucks but it does get better. hey you'll always be safe on kidztalk we love you man. PM me if you just want to talk.

Answer 2

Even if you'll probably never get to see or talk to me in person, just know that I'll always be here for you on KT. Not just me though, but lots of others too. As for what you're going through, I'm deeply sorry. I don't experience the exact same things, but life can definitely get hard for me. I guarantee you though, your life will brighten very soon. Even if you think everyone is against and ignoring you, you have people here to talk with, like I said earlier. Your life won't get better immediately, but by taking small steps, you'll definitely get there. Because god didn't create you to live miserably your whole life. I'll say this again, too. I'll always be here for you on KT. You can pm me if you want, or just simply talk to me here, and just know I'm always on the other end of the screen listening to your troubles. Never forget that.

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Thank you, It's amazing how kind everyone has been to me on kidztalk. Especially you, I don't know how I can ever repay you.

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You don't need to repay me. The best you can do for me is just promise me that you'll keep positive and believe in yourself :)

Answer 3

We haven't interacted much, but I've been gong through a lot too. I haven't attempted, but I have scared myself when thinking about it. I understand some of what you're going through.

I hope you find what you're looking for in life.

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I'm sorry that you're going through a lot. Life can be pretty crappy, but it's nice to have someone who understands.

Answer 4

Life is a Rollercoaster. There are a few ups, a lot of lows, but you have to look forward to the reason why you are on it. That big Ole peak. The best moment of your life.

And if the people who keep not appreciating what you do for them, and your love, then maybe they shouldn't be on your ride.

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Thanks, I think I needed to hear that. I have quite a habit of holding on to people who hurt more than they help.

Answer 5

wow, u've been through a lot, the worst things happen to the best people  :(

I think ur awesome for being strong through all of that, and tbh, I actually look up to u

this isn't something I talk about much, but i've tried to do the same thing that u tried to do before ( a couple nights ago actually lolz ), but one of my friends helped me ( seal guyyyyyyyy )

so I know what ur feeling rn, and i'll always be here for u, no matter what  :)

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Thank you, your words mean a lot to me. I hope you find the happiness you deserve. It's nice to have someone who understands how you feel and to have someone who doesn't judge. Outside of KT nobody understands. My boyfriend doesn't understand why I hurt myself.  I was wearing a pair of old shorts to bed and saw my scars. He got mad at me for it. He said that no matter how hard life is its no reason to cut yourself. After that he started constantly checking me and treating me as though I was an invalid. I told him that I had made It this far in life and that he didn't need to baby me. But he didn't back off. I told him that it's sweet that he cares but I'm more than capable of taking care of myself. He got mad and started yelling then stormed off. I'm not mad at him though, I understand why he's acting this way. His ma took her own life and his sister did too.

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Sorry for the tangent

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np,  I don't deserve happiness as much as a lot of other peeps on earth ( like u ), but thanks for saying that!!  :D

wow, that's crazy

he's right, u shouldn't cut urself, u don't deserve to be hurt, even if it's by urself

but he was really rude to treat u like a baby and check u constantly, and then keep doing it when u asked him to stop

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I don't disagree with the whole "You're not paper so don't cut yourself" thing. It's just the way he handled it. I guess I can't stay mad tho. He called me about two hours ago and asked if I was okay. He said that he heard I was in the hospital for the past week. He is now laying in bed next to me snoring really loud.

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Also, you deserve happiness just as much as anyone else. You are a good person who deserves a good life.

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awwwwwww, thanks  :D

Answer 6

Ill never not support you, Euronymous.

Struggles do happen to all of us. You'll get through it, I believe in you. You're a very respectable individual.

And I support your decision 100%. And remember, you're riding high in April, shot down in June. It'll get better, trust me. Like I said before, I believe in you.

So with that, I wish you the best, Euronymous, and remember, you can talk to me whenever you want, I'm always here.

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I don't know how I can ever repay you for your kindness. I've only been on KT for a month and you have made me feel more welcome than anywhere else in my life. You have been supportive and friendly to a total stranger. And I thank you for that.