Get so tired of... everything? And feel like there is no purpose, nothing matters, and you are futiley struggling toward pointless goals, and that in the end, we are sacks of meat on a floating rock hurtling through nothing but pain and suffering. And nobody cares because nothing matters. And you just... you don't want to be dead but you do. Maybe just breifely unalive. Like, just take a quick coma. or is that just me idk