11/04/2023
dealing with chronic illness makes my day to day life hard. this illness breaks you on the inside, but the symptoms are rarely noticeable on the outside. so people don't realize how much I'm struggling inside. heck, they don't even know what I'm dealing with. I always had to be discreet with my pains. just so they wouldn't notice my sickness. or else I'd become the odd kid in the world of healthy, happy kids. sometimes they ask how did my hair become so thin. I just smile and say I have no idea, honestly! they ask me how I lost so much weight, have I gone on a diet? I just smile and change the subject. I have no answer to them. I'm not allowed to share my sickness with them. it'd hold no benifit to me. they wouldn't understand. I'd just become different and sickly in their eyes. my heart goes out to all the people who are dealing with pains on the inside in their day to day life, but still have to be cheerful on the outside. but you know what, no matter how much painful it is, life goes on. one day, all pain will eventually go away. I eagerly wait for that day to come. maybe then, I will be truly happy.
- Aylin
