COVID has ruined my life, but mostly because of this; look, I'm sure corona has effected your mental health a bit, too. There are multiple problems in my life, and 80 percent have to do with this stupid pandemic. But the one crazy issue that has effected me most. I'm..not meeting ANYONE.
My parents don't even care about my mental health, they care about my sisters. They take my little sister on playdates every week, no mask, no nothing, and my parents hang out with my sister's parents. They say "it is important to socialize". Are they looking AT ME? Whenever I'm like "Mom, can I safely meet so and so at the park, you know with masks" She like-"No, they are not taking covid preacautions" Oh god, you know, my sister's friends, they don't even wear masks, my friends on the other hand are quarinting themselves, and they hardly come near me, they stay in distance, wear mask, they are taking precautions!!!
My sister's friends-well, they chose to go to school, they don't wear masks in front of us, or anyone else, they are going to BIG PARTIES! Do you think this is fair. Now, a long time ago, every one in our class used Google Hangouts from our school Google account. And our school counsler said that we are allowed to use the Google Hangouts chat to each other, because not being able to hang out-has really effected our mental health.
But now, our teacher says-"The school rules are that we cannot use Google Hangouts our any chats on our computers" but the counsler said, you know what she said. THIS IS NOT FAIR. Another kid in my class was like "But teacher, how else will we hang out"? And she was like, "Oh-my little 4th grader talks on Snapchat". But I AM NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE SNAPCHAT!! Well, I have some other safe social medias and texting apps/websites. And I should've asked my friends for their contact info, but then I was like, uhh, well, we already can talk to each other on Hangouts.
So then a kid asked, "how will we ask our friends for their Snapchat info if we can't even talk to them"??? So our teacher was like-"ask your parents for your friends contact info" Oh god, she is so dumb, forgive me, but how will our parents just have our friends contact info, without-just forget it, you know what I mean; besides we are in middle school, parents aren't a big thing when it comes to friendship, wer'e independent now.
Now when my dad talked to me about this, he said I can go and hangout my friends for their contact info, but I don't think my teacher will allow us to do that, she was sooo scrict about this thing, we can't even ask for school help or just talk about random nice stuff.
So I am too scared to ask my teacher, but I cry every day about this, and my teacher is litterally the worst, she sometimes accuses me and my classmates for something that we didn't do, and she embarrasses us in front of the whole class, like once she said to me, "What is your problem, stop watching TV, and pay attention". But I wasn't, I have a moniter so I was looking at my moniter, my camera is on my computer. When I said that she thought that i was making excuses.
And since I am soooo sad about this, I litterally lost a best friend just because of my stupid teacher. Should I just hangout my friend (on the school thing that we are not allowed to use, and just not care) to tell her my contact info and to check how she is doing? Or should I just not care about my lonliness and well..do nothing about it.
Or, should I take some deep breaths...and email my teacher for permission if we can ask our friends for their contact info? Maybe I should talk through it with my parents. Please, just please help me out here, you have saved my life, if you help me. You might be going through this issue too. Plz plz plz just tell me what to do, or you can take the poll on what I should do.
