My life has been messed up since i was 7. It started when me and my brother started fighting a LOT, and he's two and a half years older than me, and then it is my friendship with two girls, and you know what happens in a trio, one's butt gets kicked out, and that was me, then i made friends with a girl, but she turned out to be dyslexic so she ended up leaving my school to go to a special school for dyslexic people for 2 years, and then I heard that she's coming back this September to my school, THEN I found out that she's slightly autistic so she's going to the Special Needs, so I won't see her often in class. I'm now friends with a boy, and he's autistic (I also have a friend who doesn't go to my school and she is dyslexic, do I have a habit of making friends with Special Needs people?) and he bosses me a lot. One day it will be, "Cmon, let's play football with the other guys!" another day it will be, "Invite me to your house!" and I don't know if i have Social Anxiety, Autism, or Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, but if I do, then it's the answer to everything. I had just started puberty so I'm all over the place, and my brain feels like it jumped out, ran five hundred laps around my yard, played basketball for a whole week without stopping, and then flopped back into my head. I emotionally broke down last week, because i was playing basketball with this guy who is a bully, but he can be nice when he wants to, and it was fun, and this other boy was being a judge, and then my friend (The autistic one) joined in automatically, and then the guy i was playing basketball with in the first place yelled, (HE TOUCHED ME! IT WAS A FOUL!" and then everything fell apart, and so did I. I ran to a corner, sat down, and I started crying. The bully who I was playing with, and the guy who was being the judge, and a boy who is Special Needs came over to me and sat down with me and reasoned with me, and my friend went to the bench, sat down, and cried. Our teacher went to check on me, but everyone was like, 'We're fine.' then she went over to my friend and for some reason, I felt a pang of jealousy for no reason. Then, for the next two or three days, I sat in the corner alone, but my teacher didn't give a stuff about me because there's this girl who is attention seeking and always has a problem one way or another, and my teacher would walk off to see her, and I would be alone. Only my support teacher has noticed my depression, but I don't like him, and this lady who is our Assistant is really nice and cares about us, but she never goes on our breaks with us, only the tiny break after maths, which is only five minutes. What should I do??
