Heyo, it’s me Lemony!
This has all been so confusing to me but as y’all have been able to help me in lots of other things, I hope you can help with this too!
I think I may have anxiety. I don’t have panic attacks, but I have had a history of worry problems since i was 2 or 3. My first year in school, I had the traumatic (i mean, in the big picture it was probably nothing but as an anxious, noise sensitive child it was honestly terrifying) experience of having a fire drill happen when I was in the bathroom. I honestly can still feel how scared I was and actually whenever a fire alarm goes off I still freak out and sometimes almost cry. After that happened, for the whole first year of school I had the worst anxiety when useing the bathroom at school. I used it right before I left and right when I got home, and if i absolutely had to at school it wasn’t before a meltdown and forcing the teacher to tell me that there wasn’t gonna be a fire drill and her holding the door open while i used to bathroom. On multiple occasions i had full-blown panic attacks, and whenever a fire drill happened I couldn’t think straight for the rest of the day. Also, I’ve heard that anxiety manifests in stomach problems in young kids, I always used to complain about nausea in pre-k up until about 2nd grade, my teachers got exasperated when I went to the nurse and she said I was fine, but really I didn’t feel fine. I don’t really get panic attacks anymore, but last school year it started to manifest more and I had multiple panic attacks, I don’t think anyone really knew though because I hide them, I vividly remember one on the bus on the way back from a field trip, I felt a little sick, and everything was too loud and too bright, I couldn’t finish the school day and had to wait in the nurses office. I know all of these are big pointers for anxiety but somewhere inside of me there’s a little voice telling me that I’m faking it, faking it all, because i don’t get panic attacks a lot, I’m not visibly anxious, and I feel like if i told my parents they and my doctors would just dismiss it cause I don’t show my symptoms outwardly. What should I do?
